{"id":10584,"date":"2020-07-20T03:24:16","date_gmt":"2020-07-19T23:24:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/fedai.az\/?p=10584"},"modified":"2020-07-20T03:42:13","modified_gmt":"2020-07-19T23:42:13","slug":"siz-n%c9%99-axtarirsiniz","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/?p=10584","title":{"rendered":"Siz n\u0259 axtar\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?.."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

M\u0259n n\u0259 axtar\u0131ram? N\u0259 axtaraca\u011fam. H\u0259r \u201ck\u0259sin\u201d axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131…<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n


Harada qalaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 , n\u0259 yey\u0259c\u0259yimi, n\u0259 gey\u0259c\u0259yimi, bunlar da d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra, n\u0259 x\u0259rcl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


B\u0259s siz?<\/p>\n\n\n\n


M\u0259n siz axtaranlara art\u0131q sahib\u0259m. Qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ql\u0131 v\u0259 s\u0259mimi bir m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcr\u00fcr\u0259m…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


\u00c7ox d\u00f6z\u0259l. Dem\u0259k siz u\u011furlu h\u0259yata sahibsiniz. H\u0259tta, haradasa, qibt\u0259 edilm\u0259y\u0259d\u0259 \u201cnamiz\u0259dliyiniz\u201d var.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


N\u0259y\u0259s\u0259 namiz\u0259d olma\u011f\u0131m bar\u0259d\u0259, bir s\u00f6z dey\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Ancaq ax\u0131r vaxtlar h\u0259r yerd\u0259, yad m\u00fcnasib\u0259t hiss edir\u0259m. Buna fikir verm\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram. Qula\u011f\u0131ma b\u0259zi s\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00e7atd\u0131rma\u011fa ba\u015flayanlar\u0131n \u00f6zl\u0259ri deyil, \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259ri m\u0259nd\u0259 daha \u00e7ox t\u0259\u0259c\u00fcb do\u011furur. Maraql\u0131s\u0131da budurki bunu, onlardan he\u00e7n\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259diyimi, he\u00e7n\u0259 s\u00f6z verm\u0259diyimi n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 almadan, edirl\u0259r. Bu m\u0259ni h\u0259m narahat edir, h\u0259m d\u0259 qorxudur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


B\u0259s siz kimsiniz?<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Usta des\u0259m, m\u0259nc\u0259, daha m\u0259ntiqli olar.Usta. H\u0259r bir i\u015fi \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 vaxt s\u0259rf ed\u0259n birisi. N\u0259z\u0259riniz\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131m ki, vaxt\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259rf ed\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6yr\u0259ndiyi b\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259rin m\u00fck\u0259mm\u0259l bilicisi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


G\u00f6z\u0259l t\u0259qdimatd\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Bu q\u0259d\u0259r nailiyy\u0259tl\u0259rinizl\u0259, axtard\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131z aras\u0131nda qeyri m\u00fctan\u0259siblik \u00e7oxdur. \u00d6yr\u0259ndikl\u0259riniz v\u0259 bildikl\u0259rinizl\u0259, axtard\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131za, sahibl\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259m\u0259yiniz \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259dir. B\u0259lk\u0259 dedikl\u0259riniz\u0259, \u0259m\u0259linizl\u0259 deyil, iddian\u0131zla sahibsiniz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Siz n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z . M\u0259n ustayam. H\u0259m \u0259m\u0259ld\u0259 , h\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259m\u0259li i\u015fimd\u0259….<\/p>\n\n\n\n


\u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l. Sinin axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n, m\u0259nim tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131m oldu\u011funu v\u0259 ya m\u0259nim tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n sizin itirdiyiniz oldu\u011funu iddia ed\u0259r\u0259k, buraya g\u0259lm\u0259nizin s\u0259b\u0259b\u0131ni, y\u0259qin ki, dart\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z l\u00fczumsuzdur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


G\u0259li\u015fimin s\u0259b\u0259bini q\u0259rib\u0259 izah etdiniz. B\u0259lk\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 olaraq, arxtard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n h\u0259sr\u0259ti m\u0259ni bura g\u0259tirib…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


\u00c7ox g\u00fclm\u0259lidir. M\u0259nim tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n sizd\u0259 yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259sr\u0259t. Sizin fikrinizc\u0259 m\u0259n, h\u0259sr\u0259tiniz\u0259 son qoymaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sizinl\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259liy\u0259m?<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 budur siz, axtard\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 Tanr\u0131dan ist\u0259yin. O \u00e7ox m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tlidir. M\u0259n\u0259 verdiyi kimi, siz\u0259d\u0259 ver\u0259g\u0259kdir. Ancaq bird\u0259 axmaql\u0131q edib, ist\u0259diyinizi alma\u011fa qalxmay\u0131n. M\u0259nc\u0259 bu onun xo\u015funa g\u0259lmir. Onu q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259ndirir. Onu q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259ndir\u0259n, m\u0259nid\u0259 q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259ndirir, bunu unutmay\u0131n…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fcz qazanmaq ist\u0259s\u0259k d\u0259, bu h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmur. \u0130\u015f g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn v\u0259sait t\u0259l\u0259b olunur. O da bizd\u0259 yoxdur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Sizd\u0259 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n ba\u015fqa n\u0259 varki…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Onun bunun s\u0259rv\u0259tinin hara v\u0259 nec\u0259 yon\u0259ltm\u0259k haqq\u0131nda iddialar ir\u0259li s\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz. O, \u201caxmaq\u201d q\u0259zet\u00e7iniz d\u0259, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi nec\u0259 qura bilm\u0259k haqq\u0131nda hekay\u0259l\u0259rini yaz\u0131r. Siz d\u0259 oxuyub h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259nirsiniz. Bunlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 c\u0259f\u0131ngiyatd\u0131r. B\u0259s onun \u00f6z\u00fc han\u0131…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Onu sizin yan\u0131n\u0131zda g\u00f6rm\u00fcr\u0259m. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r onun yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 oxuyan yox idi. \u0130ndi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 oxucu tap\u0131b. Bir iki qoturu, yax\u015f\u0131 yedirtdikd\u0259n sonra haras\u0131ndasa oyanan h\u0259v\u0259sini, inqilaba \u00e7evirirm\u0259kl\u0259, dan\u0131\u015f\u0131qlar masas\u0131nda oturmaq ist\u0259yir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Bilirs\u0259n, bu onun otura bil\u0259c\u0259yi \u0259n y\u00fcks\u0259k k\u00fcrs\u00fc olacaq. O, ya qazanacaq, ya da h\u0259r k\u0259si m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti ay\u0131ldaraq, bu d\u00fcz\u0259nin, yeni simalarla, idar\u0259 olunmas\u0131na nail olub, \u00f6z\u00fc, he\u00e7 n\u0259 qazanmayacaq…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Usta s\u0259n bu haqda n\u0259 fikird\u0259s\u0259n. \u00d6z qism\u0259ti il\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fmay\u0131b, tanr\u0131ya qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131n c\u0259zas\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilirs\u0259n. Haradan bil\u0259s\u0259n. Bu haqda sevimli q\u0259zet\u00e7iniz y\u0259qin bir \u015fey yazmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Biz \u00f6z m\u00f6vqeyimiz v\u0259 qism\u0259timizl\u0259 raz\u0131 olanlar, narazi olanlar\u0131 m\u00fchakim\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k onlar\u0131n m\u00fcbariz\u0259sini bo\u011faca\u011f\u0131q…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Bu \u015fuarla, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 b\u0259ra\u0259t qazandirma\u011f\u0131m\u0131za , m\u00fcnasib\u0259tiniz nec\u0259dir, usta…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Siz \u015feytans\u0131n\u0131z…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


M\u0259n \u015feytan deyil\u0259m , olada bilm\u0259r\u0259m. He\u00e7 Tanr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa da iddiam yoxdur. Siz s\u0259rs\u0259ml\u0259r h\u0259r yaz\u0131ya inanaraq, onda \u00f6z xilas\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz. Ancaq xilas\u0131n\u0131zin hans\u0131 yaz\u0131da oldu\u011funu bilmirsiniz…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


B\u0259s siz bilirsiziz? Xeyr. Bunu he\u00e7 kim bilmir…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Buna g\u00f6r\u0259d\u0259, sizl\u0259r xilas\u0131 \u0259m\u0259ld\u0259 axtarma\u011fa q\u0259rar vermisiniz. El\u0259 bilirsiniz ki, ist\u0259diyizni alacaqs\u0131n\u0131z v\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey bit\u0259c\u0259k…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


\u0130nand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ,biz\u0259 bu d\u00fcnyada qism\u0259tinizl\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015f\u0131b, bir birinizl\u0259 mehiban olaraq ya\u015famaq m\u00f6hl\u0259ti verib.\u015eeytana, bizi \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131raraq, aram\u0131zi pozmaq m\u00f6hl\u0259ti…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Sizin sev\u0259r\u0259k qorudu\u011funuz q\u0259zet\u00e7iniz is\u0259, d\u00fcz\u0259ni pozaraq, sizi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259l h\u0259yata s\u0259sl\u0259yir. Yaz\u0131lar\u0131nda onun nec\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 yaz\u0131r. Ancaq ondan soru\u015fan yoxdur ki, bu q\u0259d\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt\u00e7iliyin yolunu bil\u0259n birisi n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259nd\u0259n yazd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ap olunmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn v\u0259sait ist\u0259yir. Seytan sizsiniz…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Bu g\u00fcn\u0259 kimi ald\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 almasaq, bu g\u00fcnd\u0259n bel\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 na\u011f\u0131llar\u0131 oxuyanlar\u0131n hesab\u0131na, m\u0259n\u0131m g\u0259lirl\u0259rimi art\u0131ra bilm\u0259si is\u0259 \u00e7ox \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259lidir. O sizd\u0259n v\u0259sait ist\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259z.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


M\u0259nd\u0259n v\u0259 ya m\u0259nim kimi dig\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n ist\u0259yibs\u0259, bunun f\u0259rqi n\u0259dir . Sizl\u0259r ona yaz\u0131ya g\u00f6r\u0259 pul verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ksiniz. Siz\u0259 yaz\u0131 yox, arzulad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131za yeti\u015fm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Siz m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259ksiniz?<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Sizi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n


N\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259. M\u0259n bundan n\u0259 \u0259ld\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. M\u0259n sizi buraxaca\u011fam. Ancaq \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 nahar edin. Siz acs\u0131n\u0131z. Q\u0259zet\u00e7iniz\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131n ki, suyu buland\u0131rmas\u0131n. \u0130nsanla m\u00fcqavil\u0259sini, m\u0259ni h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 sevindir\u0259n Tanr\u0131m, ondan \u00f6nc\u0259 yaz\u0131b…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


\u018fg\u0259r o n\u0259s\u0259 \u0259ld\u0259 etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259, g\u0259r\u0259k yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yax\u015fi oldu\u011funa, oxucusunu m\u0259cbur\u0259n inand\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


S\u0259ns\u0259, oxudu\u011funu anlay\u0131b, m\u00fcqayis\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k, yax\u015f\u0131n\u0131 pisd\u0259n ay\u0131randa, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k iqtidar\u0131nda olacaqsan. Ancaq d\u00fcz\u0259ni d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k a\u011fl\u0131ndan bel\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259sin. O asan i\u015f deyil. D\u00fcnya mal\u0131 pay\u0131ndan, Tanr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n l\u00fctf\u00fcnd\u0131n naraz\u0131 qalmayanlar, buna xo\u015fluqla aman verm\u0259z…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u015eamil Novruzov<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00fcharib\u0259 veteran\u0131<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

M\u0259n n\u0259 axtar\u0131ram? N\u0259 axtaraca\u011fam. H\u0259r \u201ck\u0259sin\u201d axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131… Harada qalaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 , n\u0259 yey\u0259c\u0259yimi, n\u0259 gey\u0259c\u0259yimi, bunlar da d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra, n\u0259 x\u0259rcl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi. B\u0259s siz? M\u0259n<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10584","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-veteran"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10584","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10584"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10584\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10599,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10584\/revisions\/10599"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10584"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10584"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10584"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}