Sabirabad \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m 90-c\u0131 ill\u0259rin \u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin d\u00f6vrl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. 1993-c\u00fc ild\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z rayon i\u015f\u011fal olunanda Sabirabad \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri bizim s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ilk yer idi. Ail\u0259mizl\u0259 birg\u0259 bizi evl\u0259rind\u0259 bir aydan \u00e7ox saxlayan, qay\u011f\u0131m\u0131za qalan sabirabadl\u0131 tan\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, onlar\u0131n qonaqp\u0259rv\u0259rlikl\u0259rini bu g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 unutmuram. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259ndir ki, \u015f\u0259hid mayor, \u0259sl\u0259n Sabirabaddan olan Anar M\u0259mm\u0259dovun d\u0259fn m\u0259rasimini g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259ldim, sanki yax\u0131n, do\u011fma bir insan\u0131n \u015f\u0259hid olma x\u0259b\u0259rin\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm. Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131 yazark\u0259n Anar haqq\u0131nda ara\u015fd\u0131rma aparark\u0259n is\u0259 onun v\u0259t\u0259np\u0259rv\u0259rliyi, \u0259sl ki\u015fiy\u0259 xas r\u0259\u015fad\u0259ti, \u015f\u0259r\u0259f v\u0259 l\u0259yaq\u0259tli d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f yolu v\u0259 \u0259qid\u0259sin\u0259 sadiq qalaraq d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n \u0259lin\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259d\u0259n sonuncu g\u00fcll\u0259 il\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc vurmas\u0131, Anar\u0131n timsal\u0131nda b\u00fct\u00fcn Az\u0259rbaycan o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259rdliyind\u0259n, ki\u015filiyind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u015e\u0259hidin iki q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ev\u0259 ged\u0259rk\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259nir\u0259m ki, qar\u015f\u0131la\u015faca\u011f\u0131m \u015f\u0259hid xan\u0131m\u0131 h\u0259m d\u0259 birinci Qaraba\u011f m\u00fcharib\u0259sind\u0259 — 1992-ci il fevral\u0131n 6-da \u015f\u0259hid olan, ail\u0259nin t\u0259k o\u011ful \u00f6vlad\u0131 Heyd\u0259r H\u0259midovun q\u0131z\u0131d\u0131r. U\u015faq ya\u015flar\u0131ndan \u015f\u0259hid q\u0131z\u0131 ad\u0131n\u0131 l\u0259yaq\u0259tl\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 da\u015f\u0131yan N\u0259zir\u0259 xan\u0131m, ikinci Qaraba\u011f m\u00fcharib\u0259sind\u0259n sonra \u015f\u0259hid xan\u0131m\u0131 ad\u0131n\u0131 da da\u015f\u0131mal\u0131 olur.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n S\u00f6hb\u0259timiz zaman\u0131 \u015f\u0259hidin xan\u0131m\u0131, anas\u0131 Sevda xan\u0131m, q\u0131zlar\u0131 — 8 ya\u015fl\u0131 Zeyn\u0259b, 4 ya\u015fl\u0131 \u0130mam\u0259 onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u00fcrur yerin\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259n \u0259r, o\u011ful, ata haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fmaqdan yorulmur. \u0130lk h\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259tim is\u0259 Anar\u0131n h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 N\u0259zir\u0259 xan\u0131md\u0131r:<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n — Anar \u00e7ox savadl\u0131 zabit idi. \u0130\u015fi haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131 sevmirdi. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 bu haqda Tovuz hadis\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n sonra dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Polad H\u0259\u015fimovun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc onu \u00e7ox sars\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n\u0259 dedi ki, heyf, o c\u00fcr general\u0131 itirdik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sevgi<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Anarla oxudu\u011fum universitetin h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fuq. Onu el\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 xo\u015fuma g\u0259ldi, q\u0259lbim\u0259 yol tapd\u0131. Anar\u0131 tan\u0131yan g\u00fcnd\u0259n onunla dost oldum. G\u00f6z\u0259l insan, ail\u0259 ba\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131, ata idi. \u00c7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt ail\u0259miz vard\u0131. On iki illik ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131zdan o q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l xatir\u0259l\u0259rimiz var ki, bu xatir\u0259l\u0259r bir \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu b\u0259s ed\u0259r. M\u0259n bundan sonrak\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc Anar\u0131n xatir\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131ma v\u0259 bunun m\u0259n\u0259 kifay\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 \u0259min\u0259m. O, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fli zabit idi, \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rini \u00e7ox sevir, onlar\u0131n qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131na qal\u0131rd\u0131. Anar hans\u0131 rayonda xidm\u0259t edibs\u0259, m\u0259n d\u0259 onunla birg\u0259 orada ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam. B\u0259z\u0259n onun \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rinin m\u0259zuniyy\u0259t\u0259 getm\u0259k pullar\u0131 olmurdu, m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng vurub deyirdi ki, bir adam g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, ona pul ver. G\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, g\u0259l\u0259n Anar\u0131n \u0259sg\u0259ridi. \u0130ndi onun haqq\u0131nda ke\u00e7mi\u015f zamanda dan\u0131\u015fmaq m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tindir. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, o c\u00fcr dost, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 itirmi\u015f\u0259m. Amma ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki, ham\u0131 Anar\u0131 v\u0259 onun kimi o\u011fullar\u0131 tan\u0131s\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n N\u0259zri\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n atas\u0131 \u015eu\u015fada \u015f\u0259hid olub. Bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259ndir ki, \u015f\u0259hid q\u0131z\u0131 il\u0259 ail\u0259 quran Anar h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ona deyirmi\u015f ki, narahat olma, m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 \u015eu\u015fadan torpaq g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259m.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n — Anar bu v\u0259di m\u0259n\u0259 vermi\u015fdi. M\u0259n d\u0259 ona demi\u015fdim ki, \u015eu\u015fa i\u015f\u011faldan azad olunanda m\u0259n d\u0259 toy-bayram ed\u0259c\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki birinci Qaraba\u011f m\u00fcharib\u0259si m\u0259nd\u0259n atam\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130kinci Qaraba\u011f m\u00fcharib\u0259si is\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131 ald\u0131. H\u0259yat\u0131mda olan iki d\u0259y\u0259rli insan indi yan\u0131mda deyill\u0259r. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin, a\u011f\u0131r, d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z olsa da, h\u0259m d\u0259 q\u00fcrurvericidir. Bils\u0259ydim ki, Anarla ail\u0259 qurandan sonra o, \u015f\u0259hid olacaq, inan\u0131n, yen\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcds\u00fcz onunla ail\u0259 qurard\u0131m. Biz q\u0131sa \u00f6m\u00fcr ya\u015fad\u0131q, amma \u015f\u0259r\u0259fli \u00f6m\u00fcr ya\u015fad\u0131q. Anardan m\u0259n\u0259 yadigar qalan iki q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 da inan\u0131ram ki, onun ad\u0131na layiq b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Arzular…<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Bayaqdan anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 t\u0259mkinl\u0259, b\u00f6y\u00fck irad\u0259 il\u0259 qulaq asan, onun g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi doluxsunan balaca Zeyn\u0259b atas\u0131 haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa c\u0259hd edir:<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n — Atamla olan xatir\u0259l\u0259rimi dan\u0131\u015fsam, bunu bir dastana \u00e7evirm\u0259k olar. O, \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l ata, v\u0259t\u0259np\u0259rv\u0259r insan idi. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 atas\u0131 idi. Bac\u0131m\u0131 da, m\u0259ni d\u0259 \u00e7ox sevir, vaxt\u0131 olduqca bizi g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 deyirdi ki, m\u0259n sizinl\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131ram. Biz onunla b\u00fct\u00fcn Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131, kinoteatrlar\u0131, muzeyl\u0259ri g\u0259zirdik. O, ist\u0259yirdi ki, biz h\u0259r yeri g\u00f6r\u00fcb k\u0259\u015ff ed\u0259k. Onun bir s\u00f6z\u00fc vard\u0131. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 deyirdi, torpaq su il\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fanda pal\u00e7\u0131q olur, qanla qar\u0131\u015fanda is\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259n. Atam h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259yi sevirdi. O, indi m\u0259nim f\u0259xr ed\u0259c\u0259yim insand\u0131r. Atamla anam bir-birl\u0259rini \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirdil\u0259r. O, tez-tez biz\u0259 deyirdi ki, mama bu evin g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fidir. Atam ist\u0259yirdi ki, m\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 h\u00fcquq\u015f\u00fcnas olum. M\u0259n d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 oxuyub, onun bu arzusunu yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ana<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Anar\u0131n anas\u0131 Sevda xan\u0131m, o\u011flunun itkisin\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yansa da, \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n \u015f\u0259hidlik m\u0259qam\u0131 il\u0259 q\u00fcrurland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259t \u0259snas\u0131nda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 vur\u011fulay\u0131r. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 o\u011flunun ad\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259rind\u0259n k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr, k\u0259d\u0259rli bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 onun masan\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki portretin\u0259 boylan\u0131r. Sevda xan\u0131m evinin b\u00f6y\u00fck u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olan Anar\u0131n h\u0259dind\u0259n art\u0131q yax\u015f\u0131, t\u0259rbiy\u0259li \u00f6vlad oldu\u011funu deyir:<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n — \u00dc\u00e7 o\u011flum olub. Anar evimin \u0259n sakit u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olub. S\u0259kkizinci sinifd\u0259n sonra lisey\u0259 getdi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck arzusu idi ki, h\u0259rb\u00e7i olsun. Amma atas\u0131n\u0131n da arzusu idi. Anar\u0131n ad\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox yad\u0131ma onun u\u015faql\u0131q v\u0259 yeniyetm\u0259lik ill\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Amma g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox onun h\u0259rbi liseyd\u0259 oxudu\u011fu vaxtlar g\u0259lir. Biz tez-tez onun yan\u0131na g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 gedirdik. H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259n adlay\u0131b, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 biz t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi. Evd\u0259n ayr\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, q\u0259rib\u00e7ilik ya\u015fayan u\u015faq idi (k\u00f6vr\u0259lir). Anar yax\u015f\u0131, qeyr\u0259tli, ail\u0259canl\u0131, ata-anas\u0131n\u0131 sev\u0259n o\u011ful idi. Balalar\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u00e7ox sevirdi. Amma v\u0259t\u0259nin\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 bir o q\u0259d\u0259r ba\u011fl\u0131 idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n — Sevda xan\u0131m, Anar\u0131n v\u0259t\u0259np\u0259rv\u0259rliyi g\u0259nclik ill\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc b\u00fcruz\u0259 verirdi?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n — Bizim torpaqlar\u0131m\u0131z i\u015f\u011fal olunanda, o, \u00e7ox fikir edirdi. Deyirdi, niy\u0259 torpaqlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 azad ed\u0259 bilmirik. U\u015faq idi, amma Qaraba\u011f tarixi il\u0259 maraqlan\u0131rd\u0131. O, \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131qdan \u00e7ox n\u00fcmun\u0259vi, yax\u015f\u0131 oxuyan, t\u0259rbiy\u0259li idi. M\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259ri onun x\u0259trini \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirdi. Ad\u0259t\u0259n deyirl\u0259r ki, narahat, d\u0259c\u0259l u\u015faqlar\u0131 valideynl\u0259ri h\u0259rb sah\u0259sin\u0259 y\u00f6n\u0259ldir. Amma Anar \u00e7ox rahat u\u015faq idi. H\u0259tta o biri o\u011flanlar\u0131mdan da sakit idi. Anarla ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 oktyabr\u0131n 16 v\u0259 17-d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Amma ona q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 tez-tez \u0259laq\u0259 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131q. Ay\u0131n 19-da is\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r y\u0131\u011fd\u0131q, telefonuna z\u0259ng \u00e7atmad\u0131. M\u0259nim b\u00fct\u00fcn qohumlar\u0131m art\u0131q bilibl\u0259r ki, Anara n\u0259s\u0259 olub. \u018fslind\u0259, m\u0259n d\u0259 bilirdim, daha do\u011frusu, telefonuna z\u0259ng \u00e7atmayanda \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 damd\u0131. Anayam da… Amma qohumlar\u0131m aldad\u0131rd\u0131 m\u0259ni. Deyirdil\u0259r, d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fd\u0259di, telefonuna z\u0259ng \u00e7atmaya bil\u0259r. M\u0259nim a\u011fl\u0131ma da g\u0259lm\u0259zdi ki, Anara n\u0259 is\u0259 ola bil\u0259r. Taleyi, qism\u0259ti bel\u0259 imi\u015f. V\u0259t\u0259n u\u011frunda h\u0259lak olmal\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. \u0130ndi Anar\u0131 yuxuda da g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. D\u0259fnind\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l d\u0259 yuxuda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u0130ndi yuxuda g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. He\u00e7 vaxt k\u0259d\u0259rli olmur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Vida<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n N\u0259zir\u0259 xan\u0131m da Anarla sonuncu s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rini xat\u0131rlama\u011fa, onunla ba\u011fl\u0131 son xatir\u0259l\u0259rini yad\u0131na salma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n — Anar ail\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7ox m\u00fclayim idi, amma i\u015find\u0259 \u00e7ox s\u0259rt idi. M\u0259n inanm\u0131ram ki, o c\u00fcr ail\u0259sini sev\u0259n, ail\u0259sinin qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131na qalan ikinci el\u0259 bir insan ola bil\u0259r. M\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 o q\u0259d\u0259r qay\u011f\u0131ke\u015f idi ki, h\u0259rd\u0259n el\u0259 bilirdim onun \u00f6vlad\u0131yam. H\u0259tta m\u0259n\u0259 zarafatla deyirdi ki, m\u0259ni iki yox, \u00fc\u00e7 q\u0131z\u0131m var. M\u0259n d\u0259 el\u0259 buna \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdim. M\u0259ni \u00e7ox q\u0131sqan\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259tta bir d\u0259f\u0259 sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 k\u0259sdirib g\u0259lmi\u015fdim, sa\u00e7 d\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 yara\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Amma hiss etdim ki, m\u0259hz yara\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 ac\u0131ql\u0131d\u0131. O, ail\u0259si il\u0259 zarafatla\u015fma\u011f\u0131, \u00e7ox vaxt ke\u00e7irm\u0259yi sevirdi. Yatanda bel\u0259 balalar\u0131n\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b yat\u0131rd\u0131. Anar\u0131n dostu az olsa da, \u0259traf\u0131 geni\u015f idi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 deyirdi ki, bizim s\u0259n\u0259timiz v\u0259fas\u0131z s\u0259n\u0259tdir. Y\u0259ni h\u0259rb\u00e7il\u0259r tez-tez yerl\u0259rini d\u0259yi\u015fdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bel\u0259 deyirdi. Futbol oynama\u011f\u0131, h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 a\u011fac, g\u00fcl-\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k \u0259km\u0259yi sevirdi. Bir d\u0259 o, h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q qohumcanl\u0131 adam idi. Anas\u0131na, atas\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131 idi. Atas\u0131 r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259n ilk d\u0259f\u0259 Anar\u0131 a\u011flayan g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Ona q\u0259d\u0259r Anar\u0131n g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Amma ilk d\u0259f\u0259 onda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Onun g\u00f6z\u0259l x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259tl\u0259ri haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fmaqla bitm\u0259z. H\u0259rd\u0259n fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m ki, ka\u015f bir d\u0259f\u0259 q\u0259lbim\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rdi, m\u0259ni incid\u0259rdi, m\u0259n d\u0259 indi dey\u0259rdim ki, onun bel\u0259 bir x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259ti olub. Amma d\u0259ym\u0259mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n O q\u0259d\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt idik ki, deyirdim, ilahi, insan bu q\u0259d\u0259rmi xo\u015fb\u0259xt ola bil\u0259r? Qorxdu\u011fum ba\u015f\u0131ma g\u0259ldi. Bir-birimiz\u0259 \u00e7ox ba\u011fl\u0131 idik. He\u00e7 vaxt \u00f6z ad\u0131m\u0131 demirdi, bir d\u0259f\u0259 dedi ki, Z\u00fcz\u00fc, m\u0259nim h\u0259yatdak\u0131 \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck \u015fans\u0131m odur ki, s\u0259ninl\u0259 ail\u0259 qurmu\u015fam. S\u0259nin g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u0259 v\u0259 irad\u0259n\u0259 heyranam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130ntizar<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Anar\u0131n \u015f\u0259hid olma x\u0259b\u0259ri h\u0259r yana ild\u0131r\u0131m s\u00fcr\u0259ti il\u0259 yay\u0131l\u0131r. Onu Sabirabad rayonundak\u0131 \u015e\u0259hidl\u0259r xiyaban\u0131nda d\u0259fn etm\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, ail\u0259 Anar\u0131n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 il \u0259vv\u0259l r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 getmi\u015f atas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda ail\u0259 m\u0259zarl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda d\u0259fn olunmas\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259rarla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r. N\u0259zir\u0259 xan\u0131m, qaraya, k\u0259d\u0259r\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259n bu g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259n geriy\u0259, onu Anar\u0131n itkisi il\u0259 ba\u015flanan g\u00fcnl\u0259r\u0259 geri qay\u0131d\u0131r:<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n — Ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 oktyabr\u0131n 16-da Anar bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck ev\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259rman apar\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n onu d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259 yola sald\u0131m. Dedim ki, Anar, bilirs\u0259n ki, m\u0259n atas\u0131z b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, atam\u0131 da d\u0259lic\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7ox ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Y\u0259ni m\u0259nim atama qar\u015f\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 ilahi bir e\u015fq olub, amma atas\u0131z qalm\u0131\u015fam. S\u0259n el\u0259 et ki, q\u0131zlar\u0131m da m\u0259nim kimi atas\u0131z b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259sin. M\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f bax\u0131b birc\u0259 bunu dedi: \u201cZ\u00fcz\u00fc, s\u0259n m\u00f6hk\u0259m adamsan, bilir\u0259m ki, bunun da \u00f6hd\u0259sind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n\u201d. A\u011flad\u0131m, dedim, bu n\u0259 s\u00f6zd\u00fcr deyirs\u0259n, bir d\u0259 bel\u0259 dem\u0259. G\u00fcld\u00fc v\u0259 getdi. Anar getdiyi yolu, hara n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn getdiyini bilirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Anar\u0131n \u015f\u0259hid olma x\u0259b\u0259rini biz bir az gec ald\u0131q. Bir ay biz onu itkin kimi aray\u0131b, axtard\u0131q. Onda qarda\u015flar\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 dedi ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. Dedim, Anar he\u00e7 vaxt \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259z. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259r, amma \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259z. G\u00f6rd\u00fcm, ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131lar. Hiss etdim ki, n\u0259 is\u0259 bilirl\u0259r. Amma m\u0259ni aldad\u0131rd\u0131lar. M\u0259n is\u0259 bilirdim ki, Anar sa\u011fd\u0131rsa, torpa\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda da olsa, m\u0259ni x\u0259b\u0259rsiz qoymaz, m\u0259n\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r ver\u0259r. El\u0259 bu fikirl\u0259rl\u0259 d\u0259 bir m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, Anar sa\u011f olar. H\u0259m d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, m\u0259n v\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 atam\u0131 qurban vermi\u015f\u0259m. \u0130kinci qurban\u0131 Allah m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0131ymaz. Amma f\u0259l\u0259k \u00f6z sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 say\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. Bizim ail\u0259miz v\u0259t\u0259np\u0259rv\u0259r ail\u0259 olub. Anar m\u0259nim v\u0259t\u0259nim, m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259tim idi. \u0130ndi bilmir\u0259m bundan sonra Anars\u0131z nec\u0259 ya\u015fayacam. Sad\u0259c\u0259 m\u0259nim art\u0131q bir missiyam var. Evimd\u0259 \u015f\u0259hidin iki \u0259man\u0259ti, q\u0131z \u00f6vlad\u0131 var. Onlar\u0131 \u015f\u0259hidin ad\u0131na layiq, onun arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259liy\u0259m ki, onun ruhu \u015fad olsun. Birc\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259llim d\u0259 var ki, c\u0259nn\u0259td\u0259 iki \u015f\u0259fay\u0259t\u00e7im var. Biri atam, o biri d\u0259 Anar\u0131m. Onlar\u0131n h\u0259r ikisi m\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Anar\u0131n q\u0131zlar\u0131 susqun-susqun \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 bax\u0131r. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn n\u0259 oldu\u011funu tam anlamayan 4 ya\u015fl\u0131 \u0130mam\u0259 anas\u0131na bax\u0131b p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131r: \u201cAta g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 a\u015f bi\u015fir\u0259rs\u0259n…\u201d Anas\u0131n\u0131n a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, o da k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259nir:<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n — Atam h\u0259r g\u00fcn i\u015fd\u0259n ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 bizi qucaqlay\u0131b \u00f6p\u00fcrd\u00fc. Biziml\u0259 oynay\u0131r, q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirdi. Atam yem\u0259k yey\u0259nd\u0259 onun yan\u0131nda otururdum. \u00c7oxlu yem\u0259k yeyirdik, h\u0259m d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirdik. Atam \u00e7oxlu g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u0130ndi m\u0259n atam \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131ram… <\/p>\n\n\n\n N\u0259zir\u0259 xan\u0131m is\u0259 s\u0259birl\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131na ba\u015fa sal\u0131b deyir: \u201cQ\u0131z\u0131m, biz \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz qocalanda onun yan\u0131na ged\u0259c\u0259yik…\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259mm\u0259dov Anar El\u015fad o\u011flu. 2 may 1986-c\u0131 ild\u0259 Sabirabad \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259 anadan olub. 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