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ZAUR USTAC<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cYazarlar\u201d jurnal\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f redaktoru<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bak\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

29.11.2021 <\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n\n\n

Hekay\u0259<\/span><\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ad\u0259tim \u00fczr\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r saat 6:30-da \u00e7alars\u0131z-filans\u0131z oyan\u0131b yerimin i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir az e\u015f\u0259l\u0259ndikd\u0259n sonra \u0259l at\u0131b \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan sadiq dostum \u201cRedmi\u201dni qamarlayaraq ba\u011fr\u0131ma basd\u0131m. H\u0259l\u0259 tam a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi ovu\u015fdura-ovu\u015fdura \u201cFacebook\u201dla \u201c\u0130nstagram\u201d aras\u0131 \u201cS\u0259fa\u201d\u00a0\u00a0 v\u0259\u00a0 \u201cM\u0259rv\u0259\u201d aras\u0131nda m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s ibad\u0259ti yerin\u0259 yetirirmi\u015f kimi, d\u00fcz 7 d\u0259f\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bir az art\u0131q var-g\u0259l etdim. Sonra qalx\u0131b ikiotaql\u0131 \u201ck\u00fcncd\u0259qalm\u0131\u015f\u201d, \u201ckitab\u00e7a\u201d, \u201cXru\u015f\u015fov layih\u0259li\u201d m\u0259nzilimin birinci otaqla d\u0259hliz aras\u0131ndak\u0131 taxta qap\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259sin\u0259 b\u0259rkitdiyim al\u0259td\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi 14 d\u0259f\u0259 dart\u0131n\u0131b d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00f6vb\u0259 il\u0259 divardan asd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u201cFatih\u0259 sur\u0259sini\u201d, \u201cB\u0259dn\u0259z\u0259r duas\u0131n\u0131\u201d v\u0259\u00a0 \u201cAy\u0259t\u00fcl-k\u00fcrsi\u201dni h\u0259r\u0259sini d\u00fcz 7 d\u0259f\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bir az \u00e7ox t\u0259krar-t\u0259krar oxuduqdan sonra kitab r\u0259find\u0259n \u018fbd\u00fcrr\u0259him b\u0259y Haqverdiyevin \u201cMarallar\u0131m\u201d kitab\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u00d6t\u0259n \u0259srin 70-ci ill\u0259rinin n\u0259\u015fri olan kitab\u0131n nazik ka\u011f\u0131z \u00fczl\u00fc cildi didik-didik olub saralsa da, \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki simalar nec\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f v\u0259 canl\u0131 idil\u0259r. Sanki ham\u0131s\u0131 blokda n\u00f6vb\u0259y\u0259 dayan\u0131b s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yirl\u0259r v\u0259 bir him\u0259 b\u0259nddil\u0259r ki, el\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7asan\u2026 Kitab\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k dahi \u0259dib\u0259 \u201cG\u00fcnayd\u0131n\u201d deyib, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi m\u0259nzilin giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f l\u00f6vh\u0259y\u0259 zill\u0259dim. Yen\u0259 d\u00fcz 7 d\u0259f\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 bir az art\u0131q B\u00f6y\u00fck Allah\u0131n cah\u00fc-c\u0259lal\u0131na v\u0259 pey\u011f\u0259mb\u0259rimizin \u0259mvat\u0131na zikirl\u0259r ed\u0259nd\u0259n sonra istirah\u0259t ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7dim. \u00d6t\u0259n g\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259ndiyim b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0259rd-azardan m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti d\u0259 olsa, qurtulduqdan sonra gurhagurla, \u015f\u0131rha\u015f\u0131rla\u00a0 qon\u015fulara \u201cm\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 sa\u011fam\u201d siqnal\u0131n\u0131 ver\u0259r\u0259k, qalx\u0131b g\u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda bir az a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259ydim, \u0259sn\u0259dim, g\u0259rn\u0259\u015fdim\u2026 Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn vacib rituallar\u0131 yerin\u0259 yetirdikd\u0259n sonra \u0259limi \u015fo\u011f\u0259ribin alt\u0131na bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 uzatsam da, su g\u0259lm\u0259di ki, g\u0259lm\u0259di. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b aynada \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259, daha do\u011frusu, burnumun ucuna diqq\u0259tl\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r baxsam da, z\u0259r\u0259rli bir \u0259hval g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259di. El\u0259 bu vaxt qon\u015fulara verdiyim siqnal\u0131n son akordlar\u0131 il\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r, yen\u0259 q\u0259fil \u00f6ym\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131\u2026 M\u0259cbur\u0259n h\u0259r ehtimala qar\u015f\u0131 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n su il\u0259 dolu saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u201cn\u00f6vb\u0259t\u00e7i abg\u0259rd\u0259n\u201di g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc yaxalad\u0131m. T\u0259l\u0259sik istirah\u0259t ota\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. \u00c7\u0131xa-\u00e7\u0131xa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, \u201cay can\u0131m, ilin-g\u00fcn\u00fcn bu vaxt\u0131nda bu q\u0259d\u0259r istirah\u0259t olar!?\u201d \u018fl-\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc qurulaya-qurulaya m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7ib, ax\u015famdan qalan su il\u0259 dolu caydan\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131rd\u0131m. Televizoru a\u00e7d\u0131m. Apar\u0131c\u0131 q\u0131z nec\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131sa, el\u0259 o andaca televizoru s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcb, seyvana \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 v\u0259 seyvandan g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n ki\u00e7ik parkda tam sakitlik h\u00f6km s\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bu g\u00fcn \u015fanl\u0131 Z\u0259f\u0259rimizin ild\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc il\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259dar elan olunmu\u015f d\u00f6rd g\u00fcnl\u00fck qeyri-i\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcn sonuncusu idi. Deyir\u0259m, q\u0259rib\u0259 m\u0259xluquq e vallah, evd\u0259 qalanda i\u015fi, i\u015fd\u0259 olanda evi axtar\u0131r\u0131q. Park\u0131n t\u0259n ortas\u0131ndak\u0131 tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131 sapsar\u0131 yarpaqlarla el\u0259 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259nmi\u015fdi ki, adam ist\u0259yirdi gedib \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 uzans\u0131n\u2026 Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, dolu \u00e7aydan\u0131n fiti m\u0259ni bel\u0259 s\u0259rs\u0259m d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n ay\u0131rd\u0131\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7ib, \u00e7aydan\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u201cBazar\u00e7ay\u201d qutusundan bird\u0259f\u0259lik paketl\u0259rd\u0259n birini g\u00f6t\u00fcrb bir st\u0259kan qaynanm\u0131\u015f suyu r\u0259ngl\u0259yib yenid\u0259n seyvana \u2013 \u201cNina ba\u011f\u0131\u201dna ke\u00e7dim. Bu m\u0259kan ruhumun dinclik tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yegan\u0259 gu\u015f\u0259dir. \u018fvv\u0259lki ev sahib\u0259si Nina xan\u0131m binan\u0131n layih\u0259y\u0259 uy\u011fun a\u00e7\u0131q eyvan\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flayaraq s\u0259liq\u0259li seyvana \u00e7evirib. Divarda qatlama masas\u0131 v\u0259 iki k\u0259til var. Dib\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ya\u015f\u0131l otaq bitkil\u0259ri d\u0259 oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259nzil\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n buran\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 \u201cNina ba\u011f\u0131\u201d qoymu\u015fuq. Haql\u0131 olaraq sual yarana bil\u0259r ki, m\u0259nzil\u0259 yeni k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcz? Sual yaransa da, yaranmasa da, qeyd edim ki, b\u0259li, bu m\u0259nzil\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259likc\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015f\u00fck. S\u0259b\u0259bini indi a\u00e7\u0131q-ayd\u0131n dilim\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki o bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n kimi \u00f6ym\u0259 m\u0259ni tutur. \u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 deyil\u2026 \u00c7ay\u0131m\u0131 qurtumlaya-qurtumlaya yen\u0259 \u0259n yax\u0131n sirda\u015f\u0131m \u201cRedmi\u201dni d\u00fcms\u00fckl\u0259yib oyatd\u0131m. Oyanan kimi bildiri\u015fl\u0259r p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n bir g\u00f6z\u0259l xan\u0131m \u0259l sallayaraq \u201cZ\u0259f\u0259r endiriml\u0259ri\u201d il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 m\u0259ni x\u0259b\u0259rdar etdi. \u201cMORE\u201d Psixologiya M\u0259rk\u0259zi \u015fanl\u0131 Z\u0259f\u0259r g\u00fcnl\u0259ri il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 sabahdan noyabr ay\u0131n\u0131n sonuna q\u0259d\u0259r ham\u0131ya 50%, qazil\u0259r\u0259 is\u0259 75% endiriml\u0259 xidm\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259c\u0259k. D\u00fcz\u00fc, bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00e7oxdan narahat etdiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 xeyli vaxtd\u0131r psixoloq xidm\u0259tl\u0259ri il\u0259 maraqlan\u0131rd\u0131m. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 qiym\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n, \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259rd\u0259n az-\u00e7ox m\u0259lumat\u0131m vard\u0131. H\u0259m psixologiya m\u0259rk\u0259zl\u0259rinin \u00e7oxlu\u011fu, h\u0259m d\u0259 qiym\u0259tl\u0259rin baha olmas\u0131 se\u00e7im etm\u0259yim\u0259 \u0259ng\u0259l olurdu. \u0130ndi bu xan\u0131m\u0131n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u00fc \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259si, bir d\u0259 art\u0131q dem\u0259k olar ki, televiziya verili\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259n ad\u0131n\u0131 \u0259zb\u0259rl\u0259diyim \u201cMORE\u201d-ni yen\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259 se\u00e7imimi etdim. El\u0259 bildiri\u015fin \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259n ke\u00e7id ed\u0259r\u0259k sabaha \u2013 s\u0259h\u0259r saat 10:00-a g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f t\u0259yin etdim. Qazi oldu\u011fuma g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6d\u0259ni\u015fi yerind\u0259 na\u011fd olaraq 75% endiriml\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259kdim\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ax\u015fama q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r televizoru a\u00e7anda, h\u0259r k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 baxanda \u00f6y\u0259-\u00f6y\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc birt\u0259h\u0259r ba\u015fa vurub, yen\u0259 yata\u011f\u0131ma uzand\u0131m. \u201cRedmi\u201dd\u0259 ax\u015fam ibad\u0259tl\u0259rimi yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259-yetir\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt yuxu tutub, bil\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Bir d\u0259 oyand\u0131m ki, 03:33-d\u00fcr. Briqadir\u0259 \u201dwhatsapp\u201dda yazd\u0131m ki, sabah s\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6yn\u0259 h\u0259kim\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259m, i\u015f\u0259 ondan sonra g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m, ya da x\u0259b\u0259r ed\u0259r\u0259m. \u0130\u015f dey\u0259nd\u0259 ki, sa\u011f olsunlar, qazi oldu\u011fuma g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259ni icra hakimiyy\u0259tind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259 t\u0259min edibl\u0259r. Y\u00fcng\u00fcl i\u015fdir. Briqadir d\u0259 h\u0259m \u00fc\u00e7 diplomum oldu\u011funa, h\u0259m d\u0259 h\u0259r iki m\u00fcharib\u0259nin i\u015ftirak\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 oldu\u011fum \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t edir. Y\u0259ni, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, n\u0259 i\u015fim olsa, \u00f6t\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u00fcr. Sa\u011f olsunlar\u2026 Ham\u0131s\u0131ndan raz\u0131yam\u2026 El\u0259 bu raz\u0131l\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 yenid\u0259n n\u0259 vaxt yuxulam\u0131\u015fam, bilmir\u0259m\u2026 Q\u0259fil yen\u0259 oyand\u0131m. H\u0259, bu, \u201c6:30\u201d oyan\u0131\u015f\u0131 idi. Ad\u0259tim \u00fczr\u0259 yerimin i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir az e\u015f\u0259l\u0259ndikd\u0259n sonra \u0259l at\u0131b \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan sadiq dostum \u201cRedmi\u201dni qamarlay\u0131b ba\u011fr\u0131ma basd\u0131m. H\u0259l\u0259 tam a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi ovu\u015fdura-ovu\u015fdura \u201cFacebook\u201dla \u201c\u0130nstagram\u201d aras\u0131 \u201cS\u0259fa\u201d v\u0259 \u201cM\u0259rv\u0259\u201d aras\u0131nda m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s ibad\u0259ti yerin\u0259 yetirirmi\u015f kimi, d\u00fcz 7 d\u0259f\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bir az art\u0131q\u2026. \u201cNina ba\u011f\u0131\u201d ziyar\u0259ti d\u0259 daxil olmaqla seyvan keyfind\u0259n sonra h\u0259r evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda d\u00fcz 7 d\u0259f\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bir az art\u0131q t\u0259krar-t\u0259krar qaz, su, i\u015f\u0131q yoxlamalar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259qiqlikl\u0259 yerin\u0259 yetirib, m\u0259nzild\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259mird\u0259n olan giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, blokdan g\u0259l\u0259n isti hava ax\u0131n\u0131 bildiri\u015f ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpd\u0131. B\u0259zil\u0259rini g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda f\u0131rlad\u0131b yan\u0131q verirmi\u015f kimi ba\u015f\u0131mdan s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259di. \u00c7iynim\u0259 qonan, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 yap\u0131\u015fan, yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131 toplad\u0131m. M\u00fcxt\u0259lif \u015firk\u0259tl\u0259rin reklam bildiri\u015fl\u0259rini s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 qatlay\u0131b \u0259limd\u0259ki ka\u011f\u0131z tullant\u0131lar\u0131 olan zibil paketin\u0259 qoyduqdan sonra dig\u0259r \u0259sas bildiri\u015f ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131na baxd\u0131m. Su 13 manat, i\u015f\u0131q 23 manat, qaz 59 manat g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. \u201cKombi\u201dni \u00e7ox i\u015fl\u0259tm\u0259diyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 qaz normal idi. Bildiri\u015fl\u0259ri \u0259ziz-x\u0259l\u0259f bir barat kimi penc\u0259yimin i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n d\u00f6\u015f cibin\u0259, lap \u00fcr\u0259yimin ba\u015f\u0131na qoydum. \u015eikay\u0259tl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 bir \u0259sas olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 vacib s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259r olan qovulu\u011fumu qoltu\u011fuma vurub, s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131 y\u0131\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m zibil paketl\u0259rini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 olan l\u00f6vh\u0259y\u0259 baxa-baxa, a\u011fz\u0131mda dua m\u0259nzild\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018flimd\u0259ki zibil paketl\u0259rini yer\u0259 qoyub, seyf qap\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn q\u0131f\u0131llar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flad\u0131m. D\u00fcz 7 d\u0259f\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bir az art\u0131q d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 silk\u0259l\u0259yib, \u0259l d\u0259st\u0259yini a\u015fa\u011f\u0131-yuxar\u0131 edib, yoxlad\u0131qdan sonra zibil paketl\u0259rinin h\u0259r\u0259sini bir \u0259lim\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, getdiyim yerd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcm vacib s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259r qovulu\u011fu da qoltu\u011fumda, bir g\u00f6z\u00fcm qap\u0131da yava\u015f-yava\u015f pill\u0259l\u0259ri enm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m\u2026 \u018flimd\u0259ki zibil\u0259 baxanda d\u00f6\u015f cibimd\u0259ki bildiri\u015fl\u0259r yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ani olaraq \u201c\u2026zal\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bayram g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yir\u2026\u201d fikri beynimd\u0259n g\u0259lib ke\u00e7di. Tez d\u0259 art\u0131q 4 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr m\u0259nzild\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131qda \u0259min olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn cibimd\u0259ki bildiri\u015fl\u0259ri \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki tarixl\u0259ri g\u00f6zd\u0259n ke\u00e7irdim, h\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc 5 noyabr\u00a0 2021-ci il tarixin\u0259 aid idi. Ani olaqraq, \u2013 \u201c\u018fsl bayram h\u0259diyy\u0259si olub ki\u2026\u201d \u2013 fikri eynimd\u0259n ke\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259, tezc\u0259 bu axmaq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259ni ba\u015f\u0131mdan qovaraq, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc danlaya-danlaya zibil qutular\u0131na n\u0259 vaxt \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan x\u0259b\u0259rim bel\u0259 olmad\u0131. Ka\u011f\u0131zlar olan paketi \u201cradikal\u201d qutuya, plastik qablar olan paketi is\u0259 \u201cm\u00fcxalif\u201d qutuya m\u0259xsusi bir \u0259da il\u0259, s\u0259liq\u0259li \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 \u0259rm\u0259\u011fan edib, m\u0259hl\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cMORE\u201d Psixologiya M\u0259rk\u0259zi el\u0259 d\u0259 uzaqda olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 g\u0259z\u0259-g\u0259z\u0259 saat 9:30-da onun yerl\u0259\u015fdiyi m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259mliyi il\u0259 m\u0259\u015fhur olan \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin 1 n\u00f6mr\u0259li biznes m\u0259rk\u0259zi olan \u201cYas\u0259m\u0259n Plaza\u201dn\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda idim. Deyirdil\u0259r Xaliq m\u00fc\u0259llimin obyektidir. Yas\u0259m\u0259n d\u0259 katib\u0259sinin ad\u0131 imi\u015f. Yas\u0259m\u0259n \u00e7ox f\u0259dakar, i\u015fini bil\u0259n, m\u0259suliyy\u0259tli i\u015f\u00e7i oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 obyektl\u0259rind\u0259n birin\u0259 onun ad\u0131n\u0131 verib\u2026 Yas\u0259m\u0259nin f\u0259dakarl\u0131\u011f\u0131, Xaliq m\u00fc\u0259llimin s\u0259xav\u0259ti bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259-d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 9:50-y\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r plazan\u0131n yax\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 parkda g\u0259zi\u015fdim. Vaxta 5 d\u0259qiq\u0259 qalanda qara r\u0259ngli tibbi maskam\u0131 penc\u0259yimin \u00fcst d\u00f6\u015f cibind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b \u201ctacl\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rimiz\u201d ba\u015flayandan b\u0259ri \u0259tir \u0259v\u0259zi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 g\u0259zdirdiyim \u201cp\u00fcsk\u00fcrtm\u0259 spirt\u201dd\u0259n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 bir az p\u00fcsk\u00fcrd\u00fcb taxd\u0131m. Sonra 3 manata \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn haz\u0131rlatd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u201ckovidpasportu\u201dmu \u0259limd\u0259 haz\u0131r tutaraq \u201cYasam\u0259n\u201d\u0259 ya s\u0259n, ya da m\u0259n deyib giri\u015f\u0259 do\u011fru y\u00f6n\u0259ldim. Burada t\u0259mt\u0259raql\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lama m\u0259rasimi g\u00f6zl\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, bel\u0259 bir hal olmad\u0131. Liftin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 basabas\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, 4-c\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259 qalxd\u0131m. D\u00fcz vaxt\u0131nda q\u0259bul \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sind\u0259 \u201cpi\u015ftaxta\u201dda dayanm\u0131\u015f xan\u0131m\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u201cfara\u011fat\u201d v\u0259ziyy\u0259tind\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u201cOnline\u201d qeydiyyat\u0131ma bax\u0131b, b\u0259zi m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdirdikd\u0259n, b\u00fct\u00fcn orden v\u0259 medallar\u0131n v\u0259siq\u0259l\u0259rini bir-bir yoxlad\u0131qdan, \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r m\u00fcayin\u0259 v\u0259 m\u00fcalic\u0259 olundu\u011fum b\u00fct\u00fcn x\u0259st\u0259xanalardan m\u0259n\u0259 veril\u0259n ka\u011f\u0131z-ku\u011fuzlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 eynil\u0259 m\u0259nim kimi d\u00fcz 7 d\u0259f\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bir az art\u0131q d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 silk\u0259l\u0259yib, \u0259l\u0259k-v\u0259l\u0259k etd\u0259r\u0259k yoxlad\u0131qdan sonra birinci tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fc pulsuz olmaq \u015f\u0259rtil\u0259 qazi oldu\u011fuma g\u00f6r\u0259 75% endiriml\u0259 1 seans \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn 150 manat \u00f6d\u0259ni\u015f etm\u0259li oldu\u011fumu bildirdi. D\u00fcz\u00fc, g\u0259nc \u201cpi\u015ftaxta\u00e7\u0131\u201d xan\u0131m bu 150 manat\u0131 el\u0259 i\u015fv\u0259-nazla, el\u0259 avazla ist\u0259di ki, bu haqda art\u0131q s\u00f6z dem\u0259k, sad\u0259c\u0259, g\u00fcnah olard\u0131. Kirimi\u015fc\u0259, c\u0131nq\u0131r\u0131m\u0131 da \u00e7\u0131xartmadan sanki, \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259n\u0259 5 q\u0259pikliyi market kassas\u0131nda x\u0259zin\u0259dar xan\u0131ma \u00abq\u0259pikl\u0259r laz\u0131m deyil, qals\u0131n\u00bb \u2013 dey\u0259 qaytar\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi, sonuncu i\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc \u201cbankomat\u201ddan \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fax \u201c\u0259llilik\u201dl\u0259rd\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fc \u201cpi\u015ftaxta\u201dn\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fc il\u0259 x\u00fcsusi \u0259da il\u0259 (m\u0259nim o vaxt\u0131m olmasa da, zabit olma\u011f\u0131ma r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n bir az da ordudan yeni t\u0259rxis olunmu\u015f \u0259sg\u0259r havas\u0131 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q m\u00fcc\u0259rr\u0259d bir ruh hal\u0131nda) xan\u0131ma t\u0259r\u0259f s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Sa\u011f olsun, ab-havan\u0131 pozmadan, m\u0259xsusi bir n\u0259zak\u0259tl\u0259 \u201c\u0259llilik\u201dl\u0259rin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u00fcb \u201cpi\u015ftaxta\u201dn\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 hiss\u0259sin\u0259 sald\u0131. Bunu el\u0259 etdi ki, d\u00fcz d\u00f6rd g\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fck narahatl\u0131qla c\u00fczdan\u0131mda saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 sakitlikd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b baxaraq boyunu ox\u015fay\u0131b-\u0259zizl\u0259diyim \u201c\u0259llilik\u201dl\u0259rin g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 d\u00f6\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sind\u0259n narahat olma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Fikrim orada qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, xan\u0131m\u0131n \u201c44-c\u00fc otaqda B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m sizi g\u00f6zl\u0259yir, sabahk\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn vaxt\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz orada t\u0259yin ed\u0259rsiniz\u2026\u201d kal, yo\u011fun, bayaqk\u0131 n\u0259vazi\u015fd\u0259n \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t qalmayan quru bir s\u0259s m\u0259ni yenid\u0259n \u201cpi\u015ftaxta\u201dn\u0131n q\u0259n\u015f\u0259rin\u0259 qaytard\u0131 v\u0259 an\u0131ndaca d\u0259hliz boyu add\u0131mlama\u011fa vadar etdi\u2026 44-c\u00fc ota\u011fa \u00e7atana q\u0259d\u0259r \u201c\u2026\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz orada t\u0259yin ed\u0259rsiniz\u2026\u201d, \u201c\u2026\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz ed\u0259rsiniz\u2026\u201d, \u201c\u2026ed\u0259rsiniz\u2026\u201d, k\u0259lm\u0259l\u0259ri bur\u011fu kimi beynimi e\u015fdi\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Boynunda b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259yi \u015fal\u0131, \u0259ynind\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131, sar\u0131l\u0131 n\u0259rgiz \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri olan b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259yi donlu dolu, ortaboylu, ortaya\u015fl\u0131, g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fczl\u00fc, xo\u015f rayih\u0259li bir xan\u0131m sanki m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yirmi\u015f kimi, m\u0259n qap\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki 44-\u00fc oxuyub ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rana q\u0259d\u0259r qap\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Otaqdan d\u0259hliz\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n xo\u015f rahiy\u0259si qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 qoxusu da yay\u0131ld\u0131. M\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7dim. Xan\u0131m qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u0259r\u0259k nazlana-nazlana \u00f6z kreslosuna ke\u00e7di. Ota\u011f\u0131n divar ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131 da b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259yi r\u0259ngd\u0259 idi. P\u0259rd\u0259nin r\u0259ngini t\u0259yin ed\u0259 bilm\u0259dim b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259yidir, yoxsa \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131\u2026 Arada a\u00e7\u0131q g\u00f6y v\u0259 ya ya\u015f\u0131l r\u0259ngd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc\u2026 \u00c7ox sirli bir al\u0259m\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Xan\u0131m\u0131n x\u00fcsusi ah\u0259ng v\u0259 intonasiya il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, arada g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00fczd\u00fcr\u00fcb dediyi s\u00f6zl\u0259ri bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259nim qulaq v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fc\u015fayi\u0259t etm\u0259si, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin d\u00fcz i\u00e7in\u0259 zill\u0259nmi\u015f n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rinin burnumun ucundan s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb a\u011fz\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259si m\u0259ni lap ovsunlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259n xan\u0131m xeyli dan\u0131\u015fsa da, ya he\u00e7 n\u0259 e\u015ftmirdim, ya da e\u015fits\u0259m d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. Tamam ba\u015fqa d\u00fcnyada idim. \u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259di ki, xan\u0131m bunun f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131. Yen\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 dey\u0259-dey\u0259 kreslosundan qalx\u0131b m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. \u018flimd\u0259ki ka\u011f\u0131zlarla maraqland\u0131. \u201cPi\u015ftaxta\u201d\u00e7\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 verdiyi ka\u011f\u0131zlarla \u00f6z s\u0259n\u0259d v\u0259 h\u0259kim ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131m\u0131, h\u0259tta bu g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r he\u00e7 kim\u0259 etibar etm\u0259diyim vacib s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259r qovlu\u011fumu da qeyri-iradi ona verdim. Otaqda ondan ba\u015fqa xan\u0131m olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 indi m\u0259n\u0259 y\u0259qinlik hasil oldu ki, bu el\u0259 B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcd\u00fcr. D\u00fcz\u00fc, onu televizordan \u00e7ox g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Ancaq televizorda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm xan\u0131ma ox\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131. Realda daha istiqanl\u0131 v\u0259 mehriban adam t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131d olard\u0131q. Uzaqba\u015f\u0131 1-2 ya\u015f f\u0259rqimiz olard\u0131. Bu arada onu da deyim ki, m\u0259nim 45 ya\u015f\u0131m var. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 kresloda deyil, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 qoyulmu\u015f divanda oturdu v\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 yan\u0131nda yer g\u00f6st\u0259rdi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Buyurun, \u0130lqar b\u0259y. Z\u0259hm\u0259t olmasa burada \u0259yl\u0259\u015fin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6z ad\u0131m\u0131 bu g\u00f6z\u0259l xan\u0131m\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan bel\u0259 m\u0259lah\u0259tli s\u0259sl\u0259 e\u015fitm\u0259yim m\u0259ni lap duy\u011fuland\u0131rd\u0131. K\u00f6vr\u0259ldim. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim  ya\u015fard\u0131. B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m bunun f\u0259rqind\u0259 idi ki, bir daha:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Buyurun, buyurun\u2026 \u018fyl\u0259\u015fin. \u2013 dey\u0259 t\u0259krarlad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259n d\u0259 ke\u00e7ib onun yan\u0131nda oturdum. Yax\u015f\u0131 olmu\u015fdu, \u00fcz\u00fc qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f oturdu\u011fumuza g\u00f6r\u0259 daha p\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259ymirdi. \u0130kimiz d\u0259 divanda \u00fcz\u00fc qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f oturmu\u015fduq. Divan\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda balaca miz, onun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 is\u0259 \u015f\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r su axan balaca \u015f\u0259lal\u0259 maketi vard\u0131. Bu maket v\u0259 x\u00fcsusi il\u0259 su s\u0259si m\u0259ni ciddi narahat ets\u0259 d\u0259, birt\u0259h\u0259r d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, \u00f6d\u00fcm a\u011fz\u0131ma g\u0259ls\u0259 d\u0259, di\u015fl\u0259rimi q\u0131cay\u0131b birt\u0259h\u0259r oturmu\u015fdum. Otaqda i\u015f\u0131q yanm\u0131rd\u0131. Arada hardansa sanki uzaqdan asta b\u00fclb\u00fcl s\u0259si g\u0259lirdi. Otaq h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 r\u0259ngini ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131ra bilm\u0259diyim a\u00e7\u0131q r\u0259ngli p\u0259rd\u0259d\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb g\u0259l\u0259n i\u015f\u0131qla i\u015f\u0131qlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m x\u00fcsusi bir \u0259da il\u0259 \u0259yilib mizin alt\u0131ndan bir qutu \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131. Qutudan b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259yi v\u0259 \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 r\u0259ngl\u0259rin bir-birin\u0259 sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 bur\u011fulu \u00fc\u00e7 \u015fam g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 \u015famdana qoydu. \u015eamdan\u0131 mizin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 el\u0259 qoydu ki, istiqam\u0259ti qap\u0131, \u015f\u0259lal\u0259, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 olmaqla sanki ikimizin aras\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259n x\u0259yali bir \u00e7\u0259p\u0259r-divar, arak\u0259sm\u0259  yarand\u0131. Dodaqalt\u0131 n\u0259s\u0259 z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259 ed\u0259-ed\u0259 \u015famlar\u0131 qap\u0131dan biz\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f olmaq \u015f\u0259rti il\u0259 yand\u0131rma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. \u015eamlar\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc d\u0259 yand\u0131qdan sonra mizin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki q\u0259dimi c\u00fcrd\u0259y\u0259 ox\u015fayan vazan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259ki \u201cyeni il elektrodlar\u0131na\u201d ox\u015fayan \u00e7ubuqlar\u0131 da bir-bir yand\u0131rd\u0131. Arada m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evril\u0259nd\u0259 xo\u015f rayih\u0259li isti n\u0259f\u0259sini \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259 v\u0259 sin\u0259md\u0259 hiss etdikc\u0259 bihu\u015f olurdum. Bir yandan \u015famlar, bir yandan da x\u00fcsusi qoxulu \u00e7ubuqlar\u0131n t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fc\u2026 Lap na\u011f\u0131llar al\u0259min\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm\u2026 Bir-iki d\u0259f\u0259 qeyri-iradi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 T\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m, t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m, \u2013 dey\u0259 B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n e\u015fid\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yi tonda m\u0259n d\u0259 dodaqalt\u0131 m\u0131z\u0131ldad\u0131m. Ancaq B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m ya m\u0259nim bu can\u0131 \u2013 dild\u0259n, sidqi-\u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcrnam\u0259l\u0259rimi q\u0259bul etm\u0259di, ya e\u015fitm\u0259di, ya da h\u0259r iki hal ba\u015f vers\u0259 d\u0259, o, bunu b\u00fcruz\u0259 verm\u0259di. D\u00fcz\u00fc, bel\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l, z\u00f6vql\u00fc xan\u0131m\u0131n saymazyanal\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259ni bir az m\u00fct\u0259\u0259ssir etdi\u2026 Ancaq m\u0259n d\u0259 bunu b\u00fcruz\u0259 verm\u0259dim. Ya el\u0259 bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmaq, ya da bayaqdan z\u00f6vq ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m, indi is\u0259 m\u0259ni s\u0131xma\u011fa ba\u015flayan ab-havan\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259 s\u00fckutu m\u0259n pozdum:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Xan\u0131m, bu \u201cMORE\u201d n\u0259 dem\u0259kdir?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 \u0259tirli s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc-s\u00f6hb\u0259tini dinl\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn  x\u00fcsusi i\u015ftaha il\u0259 verdiyim suala sualla cavab ald\u0131m:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 B\u0259s, sizin \u00f6z versiyan\u0131z var? \u2013 B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m m\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Y\u0259ni mor r\u0259ngi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Onda qal\u0131r \u201cmore\u201d, \u201cmore\u201d d\u0259niz\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 O da deyil. \u201cMORE\u201d, y\u0259ni \u201cM\u0259n\u201d \u201cOnu\u201d \u201cRam\u201d \u201cEtdim\u201d. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r b\u0259sit v\u0259 sad\u0259. \u201cMORE Psixologiya M\u0259rk\u0259zi\u201d art\u0131q uzun ill\u0259rdir \u00f6lk\u0259mizd\u0259 f\u0259aliyy\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rir. Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n ilk bu y\u00f6nd\u0259 xidm\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n m\u0259rk\u0259zl\u0259rind\u0259n biridir. \u00d6lk\u0259mizin b\u00fct\u00fcn iri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r v\u0259 rayonlar\u0131nda, h\u0259tta b\u0259zi iri k\u0259ndl\u0259rind\u0259 filiallar\u0131m\u0131z var. Kollektivimiz pe\u015f\u0259karlardan ibar\u0259tdir. M\u00fcnt\u0259z\u0259m olaraq \u0259m\u0259kda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z televiziya proqramlar\u0131na qat\u0131l\u0131r, bu sah\u0259d\u0259 xalq\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n maarifl\u0259ndirilm\u0259si prosesind\u0259 f\u0259al i\u015ftirak ed\u0259r\u0259k, \u00f6z t\u00f6hf\u0259l\u0259rini verirl\u0259r. Y\u0259qin ki, sizin b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlardan x\u0259b\u0259riniz var.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 B\u0259li, b\u0259li,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 M\u0259n bu s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259r\u0259 \u0259sas\u0259n \u2013 \u0259lind\u0259 v\u0259 mizin \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 olan m\u0259nim s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rim\u0259 i\u015far\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k \u2013 sizin hal-haz\u0131rk\u0131 v\u0259ziyy\u0259tinizl\u0259 dem\u0259k olar ki, tan\u0131\u015f oldum. Ancaq m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni h\u0259ll etm\u0259k, durumu d\u00fcz\u0259ltm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bunlar kifay\u0259t etm\u0259z. H\u0259kim r\u0259yl\u0259rind\u0259n bel\u0259 m\u0259lum olur ki, sizi m\u00fct\u0259madi olaraq, m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n m\u0259qamlarda narahat ed\u0259n \u00f6ym\u0259 hallar\u0131 s\u0131rf psixoloji problemdir. Y\u0259ni bunun fizioloji, b\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259l olaraq he\u00e7 bir \u0259sas\u0131 yoxdur. Bu g\u00fcn v\u0259ziyy\u0259t bel\u0259dir. Ancaq biz bu g\u00fcn\u0259, he\u00e7 olmasa bu problemin ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyi ilk hala g\u0259lib \u00e7atmal\u0131y\u0131q. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn siz lap u\u015faql\u0131qdan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz haqq\u0131nda bir az, yaddaqalan \u0259lam\u0259tdar hadis\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n, sizi narahat ed\u0259n probleml\u0259rd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fsan\u0131z i\u015fimiz daha asan olar. Siz el\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z ilk g\u00fcnd\u0259n, ilk hadis\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015flay\u0131n, ard\u0131 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yumaq \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc kimi g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u2026V\u0259 m\u0259n h\u0259min g\u00fcn evd\u0259kil\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb blokumuzdan \u00e7\u0131xanda o ma\u015f\u0131nm\u0131 deyim, nasosmu deyim, bilmir\u0259m\u2026 H\u0259min texnika \u2013 biz ona \u201csu\u00e7\u0259k\u0259n\u201d deyirdik \u2013 blokun giri\u015find\u0259 yen\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. H\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda penc\u0259yimin qolu da s\u00fcrt\u00fcn\u00fcb mazuta bula\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u2013 qeyri-iradi penc\u0259yimin qoluna baxsam da, sonra xat\u0131rlad\u0131m ki, bu, o penc\u0259k deyil \u2013 texnikan\u0131n yan\u0131ndak\u0131 i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259r\u0259, uzun ill\u0259rdir h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6y \u0259sgiy\u0259 d\u00fcym\u00fc\u015f bu problem\u0259 bigan\u0259 qalan ham\u0131ya di\u015fimin dibind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan\u0131 ucadan des\u0259m d\u0259, t\u0131rhat\u0131rdan \u00e7\u0259tin ki, kims\u0259, n\u0259s\u0259 e\u015fitdi. Onlar e\u015fitm\u0259s\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, m\u0259n i\u015fimd\u0259 bir rahatl\u0131q tapm\u0131\u015f kimi, bir az g\u00fcmrahla\u015f\u0131b, q\u0131vraq add\u0131mlarla binam\u0131zdan ayr\u0131ld\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bu g\u00fcn bu q\u0259d\u0259r kifay\u0259tdir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n dikt\u0259si m\u0259ni o g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n ay\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130lk olaraq g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 mizin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki \u015famlar d\u0259ydi. \u015eamlar\u0131n ikisi \u2013 yan\u0131ndak\u0131lar tamam yan\u0131b qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ortadak\u0131 \u015fam\u0131n g\u00f6y\u00fcmsov sar\u0131 alovunun uzun dill\u0259ri is\u0259 son hop-g\u0259ll\u0259rini vuraraqell\u0259n\u0259-yell\u0259n\u0259 tamam \u00f6l\u0259zimi\u015fdi v\u0259 s\u00f6nm\u0259k \u00fczr\u0259 idi\u2026 S\u00f6hb\u0259ti x\u0131rp k\u0259ss\u0259m d\u0259, sonra n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi bilm\u0259diyimd\u0259n:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 V\u0259 m\u0259n\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Siz indi gedin bir yax\u015f\u0131 dinc\u0259lin. Yax\u015f\u0131 olar ki, ev\u0259 getm\u0259mi\u015f bulvara t\u0259r\u0259f ged\u0259siniz. Sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 bulvarda v\u0259 ya ba\u015fqa yerd\u0259 d\u0259nizin sahilind\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt olmusunuz? Su \u015f\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259 vaxt e\u015fitmisiniz? G\u2026.?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n \u201cG\u00fc\u015f\u015f\u015f\u015f\u015f\u201d v\u0259 ya \u201cG\u00f6\u015f\u015f\u015f\u015f\u201d il\u0259 ba\u015flamq ist\u0259diyi sonuncu c\u00fcml\u0259si a\u011fz\u0131nda qald\u0131. M\u0259n is\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r i\u00e7diyim bir qurtum r\u0259ngli suyu fontan kimi a\u011fz\u0131mdan mizin \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 f\u0131\u015fq\u0131rda-f\u0131\u015fq\u0131rda \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm: \u201c\u2026bura q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u015f\u0131 g\u0259lmi\u015fdik, ax\u0131r ki, zibili \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u2026\u201d. M\u0259nim \u201cfontan\u0131m\u201d\u0131n suyu il\u0259 mizin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n \u015f\u0259lal\u0259sinin sular\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. D\u00fcz\u00fc, n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi bilmirdim. A\u011fz\u0131m dolu oldu\u011fundan, sad\u0259c\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131mla mizin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki \u015f\u0259lal\u0259 maketin\u0259 davaml\u0131 i\u015far\u0259 ed\u0259-ed\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m\u2026 B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m sanki he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f kimi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u018fla, \u0259la\u2026 Narahat olmay\u0131n\u2026 M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259nin \u0259slini \u00f6z g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczl\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fck\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

He\u00e7 bir problem yoxdur\u2026 Narahat olmay\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 M\u0259n\u2026 m\u0259n\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u011fz\u0131m\u0131, burnumu cibimd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131\u011f\u0131m cib d\u0259smal\u0131mla sil\u0259-sil\u0259 \u2013 bayaqdan bu \u015f\u0259lal\u0259nin \u2013 mizin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki maketi g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k \u015f\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u0131na g\u00fcc-b\u0259la il\u0259 tab g\u0259tirib, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fccl\u0259 saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Siz sudan, \u015f\u0131r-\u015f\u0131rdan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131nca \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc saxlaya bilm\u0259dim. \u00dcz\u00fcrl\u00fc say\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Eybi yox\u2026 Eybi yox, olan i\u015fdi\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Ancaq xahi\u015f edir\u0259m sabah bu \u2013 maket\u0259 i\u015far\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k \u2013 \u201c\u015f\u0259lal\u0259ni\u201d buraya qoymay\u0131n. Olarm\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, olar. Olar. Qoymar\u0131q. Dem\u0259li bel\u0259, siz indi gedin yax\u015f\u0131ca dinc\u0259lin. Sabah saat 10:00-da birba\u015fa bura g\u0259l\u0259rsiniz. 4-c\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259, 44-c\u00fc otaq, B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Oldu, \u2013 deyib yar\u0131 islanm\u0131\u015f, yar\u0131 quru ka\u011f\u0131z-ku\u011fuzumu mizin \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259n y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b, pe\u015fman-pe\u015fman otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu \u0259z\u0259m\u0259tli binadan g\u0259ldiyim kimi d\u0259 ayr\u0131lma\u011f\u0131n dilxorlu\u011fu il\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa n\u0259 vaxt \u00f6z blokumuzda, \u00f6z m\u0259nzilimin, 3 q\u0131f\u0131ll\u0131 d\u0259mir seyf qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7at\u0131b dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan he\u00e7 x\u0259b\u0259rim olmad\u0131. Yaln\u0131z indi xat\u0131rlad\u0131m ki, ev\u0259 qay\u0131danda \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k almal\u0131yd\u0131m. M\u0259cbur\u0259n h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki mini market\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259li oldum. Bir \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k al\u0131b, \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259yirdim ki, sat\u0131c\u0131 xan\u0131m\u0131n: \u201cBa\u015fqa n\u0259?\u201d- sual\u0131 m\u0259ni yenid\u0259n r\u0259fl\u0259r\u0259 baxma\u011fa m\u0259cbur etdi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bax bir d\u0259n\u0259 bundan verin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Ba\u015fqa?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bir d\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 bundan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018flimd\u0259, qolumda yer qalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n sat\u0131c\u0131 xan\u0131m: \u2013 \u201c\u0130st\u0259yirsiniz u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131m siz\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etsin, m\u00fc\u0259llim? Ya da lap el\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm indi buran\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131b siz\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259r\u0259m. Ax\u0131 biz qon\u015fuyuq\u2026\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 bir az qay\u011f\u0131l\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 sual dolu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 zill\u0259di.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Yox, can\u0131m. N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z? Laz\u0131m deyil. \u00c7ox sa\u011f olun. Budu, burad\u0131. \u0130ndi qalx\u0131ram yuxar\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259n\u0259 satd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131n pulunu \u00f6d\u0259dikd\u0259n sonra m\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259cburi t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm ed\u0259r\u0259k, oradan ayr\u0131ld\u0131m. Yenid\u0259n \u00f6z al\u0131nmaz qalam\u0131n giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131na dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, qap\u0131da yeni bildiri\u015f qoyduqlar\u0131n\u0131 f\u0259rq etdim. Qap\u0131dak\u0131 a\u00e7ar yerin\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015fdirilmi\u015f b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fc ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb a\u00e7d\u0131m. Q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 r\u0259ngli q\u0259l\u0259m il\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259li x\u0259tl\u0259 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u201cJEK\u201d-in bildiri\u015fi idi: \u201cX\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q! Bu ay\u0131n sonuna q\u0259d\u0259r istismar x\u0259rcl\u0259rini v\u0259 zibil pulunu \u00f6d\u0259m\u0259s\u0259niz sizi m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259yik\u201d. Qeyri-iradi: \u2013 \u201cJEK n\u0259di?\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259-dey\u0259 ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n b\u00fck\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fc kimi m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 b\u00fck\u00fcb blokun a\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131rtma at\u0131\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 bay\u0131ra u\u00e7urtdum. Q\u0131f\u0131llar\u0131 bir-bir a\u00e7d\u0131qdan sonra sonunda n\u0259hay\u0259t ki, m\u0259nzil\u0259 daxil ola bildim. S\u0259mimiliyim\u0259 inan\u0131n. 18 ya\u015f\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r k\u0259ndd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, sonra is\u0259 dem\u0259k olar ki, \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00e7ox hiss\u0259sini da\u011fda-da\u015fda ke\u00e7irm\u015f bir adam \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b-ba\u011flamaqdan ta bu \u201cJEK\u201d s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ham\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7ox yorucu v\u0259 olduqca a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259nzil\u0259 daxil olan kimi \u0259limd\u0259kil\u0259r masan\u0131n v\u0259 divan\u0131n, \u0259ynimd\u0259kil\u0259r is\u0259 \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 getdi. Yax\u015f\u0131-yax\u015f\u0131 yuyunub, spirtl\u0259ndikd\u0259n sonra art\u0131q ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259n qalma oldu\u011funu unutdu\u011fum i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 su olan \u00e7aydan\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00c7aydan fit ver\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r he\u00e7 n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n m\u0259tb\u0259xin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n sakit k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259miz\u0259, balaca parka v\u0259 bir az aral\u0131da ucalan \u201cAlov Q\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259ri\u201dn\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sal\u0131b, diqq\u0259timi sonuncunun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 c\u0259ml\u0259dim. \u00dcz\u0259rind\u0259 art\u0131q iki ildir \u201cEvd\u0259 qal!\u201d, \u201cBiz birlikd\u0259 g\u00fccl\u00fcy\u00fck!\u201d, h\u0259rd\u0259n dal\u011falanan \u00fc\u00e7 r\u0259ngli bayra\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 v\u0259 \u00e7ox vaxt alov dill\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 ad\u0259t etdiyimiz bu q\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259r \u015f\u0259h\u0259rimizin yeni simvollar\u0131ndan birin\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi. Art\u0131q q\u00fcruba do\u011fru y\u00f6n\u0259lmi\u015f pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u0259\u015finin q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya \u00e7alan t\u00fcnd nar\u0131nc\u0131 r\u0259ngi q\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259rin parlaq \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n \u0259ks olunaraq cazib\u0259dar m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu arada \u015e\u0259hidl\u0259r Xiyaban\u0131na \u2013 Teleq\u00fcll\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f olan birinci q\u00fcll\u0259d\u0259 troslarla as\u0131l\u0131 v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259ri sil\u0259n \u201calpinistl\u0259r\u201d diqq\u0259timi \u00e7\u0259kdi. Maraql\u0131d\u0131r, dem\u0259k olar ki, G\u00fcn batma\u011fa ba\u015flasa da, i\u015f h\u0259l\u0259 davam edirdi\u2026 \u201cAlpinist\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fc a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259n kimi, \u201c\u0259caba, bu z\u00f6z\u00fcn Alp da\u011flar\u0131 il\u0259 bir \u0259laq\u0259si varm\u0131?\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 yeni bir sual beynim\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259di. Sonra beq\u0259fil Qalaya yal\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rl\u0259 d\u0131ma\u015fan \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259ri xat\u0131rlad\u0131m\u2026 Y\u0259qin el\u0259 t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259si olan qazil\u0259rimizi d\u0259 bel\u0259 x\u00fcsusi bacar\u0131q t\u0259l\u0259b olunan yerl\u0259rd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259 t\u0259min edirl\u0259r\u2026 Q\u0259fil fit s\u0259si b\u00fct\u00fcn fikirl\u0259ri ba\u015f\u0131mdan qovdu. Fitli caydan\u0131 icad ed\u0259nin atas\u0131na r\u0259hm\u0259t oxuya-oxuya qaz\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcb. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 bir fincan r\u0259ngli qaynanm\u0131\u015f su haz\u0131rlay\u0131b \u201cNina ba\u011f\u0131\u201dna yolland\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7ay\u0131m\u0131 udumlaya-udumlaya arada briqadir\u0259 \u201dwhatsapp\u201dda yazd\u0131m ki, g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m, evd\u0259y\u0259m. Ancaq h\u0259m \u00e7ox yor\u011funam, h\u0259m d\u0259 art\u0131q ax\u015famd\u0131r, sabah yen\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259m, \u0130n\u015f\u0259Allah, birisi g\u00fcn i\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sa\u011f olsun, o da yazd\u0131 ki, narahat olmay\u0131n, \u00f6z i\u015fimd\u0259 olum\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259r g\u00fcn t\u0259krar olunan \u00f6z i\u015fl\u0259riml\u0259 ba\u015fa vurub, yerim\u0259 uzananda art\u0131q gec\u0259 yar\u0131dan ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi\u2026 \u201cRedmi\u201dd\u0259 ax\u015fam ibad\u0259tl\u0259rimi yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259-yetir\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt yuxu tutub, bil\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Bir d\u0259 oyand\u0131m ki, saat 6:30-dur. Ad\u0259tim \u00fczr\u0259 yerimin i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir az e\u015f\u0259l\u0259ndikd\u0259n sonra \u0259l at\u0131b \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan sadiq dostum \u201cRedmi\u201dni qamarlay\u0131b ba\u011fr\u0131ma basd\u0131m. H\u0259l\u0259 tam a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi ovu\u015fdura-ovu\u015fdura \u201cFacebook\u201dla \u201c\u0130nstagram\u201d aras\u0131 \u201cS\u0259fa\u201d v\u0259 \u201cM\u0259rv\u0259\u201d aras\u0131nda m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s ibad\u0259ti yerin\u0259 yetirirmi\u015f kimi d\u00fcz 7 d\u0259f\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bir az art\u0131q\u2026 \u201cNina ba\u011f\u0131\u201d ziyar\u0259ti d\u0259 daxil olmaqla seyvan keyfind\u0259n sonra h\u0259r evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda d\u00fcz 7 d\u0259f\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bir az art\u0131q t\u0259krar-t\u0259krar qaz, su, i\u015f\u0131q yoxlamalar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259qiqlikl\u0259 yerin\u0259 yetirib, m\u0259nzild\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. G\u0259z\u0259-g\u0259z\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259-ed\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt 44 n\u00f6mr\u0259li ota\u011f\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7at\u0131m, he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. 44-\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi qeyri-iradi burnuma b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259nin m\u0259xsusi qoxusu g\u0259ldi. Yaln\u0131z bu anda olub-ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259rin f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131m. D\u0259rhal telefonda saata baxd\u0131m. M\u0259lum oldu ki, h\u0259l\u0259 vaxta 5-6 d\u0259qiq\u0259 var. Qay\u0131d\u0131b vaxt\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim ki, qap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u2026 H\u0259min tan\u0131\u015f rayih\u0259, o h\u0259lim s\u0259s\u2026 B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m m\u0259ni i\u00e7\u0259ri d\u0259v\u0259t etdi. Art\u0131q \u015famdanl\u0131 miz bizi dinl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131r idi. \u018flav\u0259 sual verm\u0259d\u0259n B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m divanda d\u00fcn\u0259n oturdu\u011fu yerd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259r\u0259k, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259li il\u0259 yan\u0131nda yer g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. Yaln\u0131z bundan sonra: \u2013 \u201cTam rahat v\u0259 s\u0259rb\u0259st olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ist\u0259s\u0259niz \u00fcst geyimini \u00e7\u0131xarda bil\u0259rsiniz\u201d- dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Xeyr, nazik v\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fcld\u00fcr. Qals\u0131n. \u2013 dey\u0259-dey\u0259 ke\u00e7ib \u00f6z yerimd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdim\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eamlar yan\u0131r, \u201celektrodlar\u201d t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259yirdi. \u00c7ox astadan h\u0259zin, yuxug\u0259tirici \u00e7in melodiyas\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259nirdi\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 H\u0259, harda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q? \u2013 S\u00fckutu bu d\u0259f\u0259 B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fc pozdu. Sanki vaxt\u0131 bo\u015fa verm\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yi kimi bir ah\u0259ng hiss etim s\u0259sind\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Dem\u0259li, \u201cm\u0259n h\u0259min g\u00fcn evd\u0259kil\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb blokumuzdan \u00e7\u0131xanda o ma\u015f\u0131nm\u0131 deyim, nasosmu deyim, bilmir\u0259m\u2026 H\u0259min texnika \u2013 biz ona \u201csu\u00e7\u0259k\u0259n\u201d deyirdik \u2013 blokun giri\u015find\u0259 yen\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. H\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda penc\u0259yimin qolu da s\u00fcrt\u00fcn\u00fcb mazuta bula\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u2026\u201d \u2013 Bax orada qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni bir az da d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdirib, el\u0259 ordan davam ed\u0259k. O n\u0259 \u201csu\u00e7\u0259k\u0259n\u201d ma\u015f\u0131n idi el\u0259, orda i\u015fl\u0259yirdi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Dem\u0259li, bel\u0259, B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m. Qeyd etdiyim kimi, m\u0259nim u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m k\u0259ndd\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259mgild\u0259 ke\u00e7ib. Ancaq o vaxtlar da \u2013 \u201csovet d\u00f6vr\u00fc\u201d tez-tez atamgil\u0259, y\u0259ni bu evmiz\u0259 g\u0259lirdim. El\u0259 yaranandan m\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey t\u0259rsin\u0259 olub. U\u015faqlar yayda d\u0259rs ba\u011flananda k\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259sigil\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259, m\u0259n \u0259ksin\u0259, yayda d\u0259rs ba\u011flanan kimi Bak\u0131ya atamgil\u0259 g\u0259lirdim. Bunu niy\u0259 qeyd edir\u0259m? H\u0259min vaxtlar binam\u0131z\u0131n, y\u0259ni bu binan\u0131n \u2013 atamgil ya\u015fayan binan\u0131n zirz\u0259misi qupquru olard\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki u\u015faq vaxt\u0131 yad\u0131mdad\u0131r ki, ora girm\u0259yi n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r qada\u011fan ets\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, maraq g\u00fcc g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 u\u015faqlarla ora girmi\u015fdik. D\u0259mir seyf qap\u0131s\u0131 olsa da, he\u00e7 vaxt ba\u011fl\u0131 olmazd\u0131. Qupquru, t\u0259rt\u0259miz zirz\u0259mi idi. Ancaq 90-lardan sonra art\u0131q bu t\u0259mizliyin izi-tozu qalmad\u0131. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r su olmasa da\u2026 \u2013 burada m\u0259ni yen\u0259 quru \u00f6ym\u0259 tutdu\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Ara verin, dinc\u0259lin\u2026 \u2013 dey\u0259 B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259li il\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259rb\u0259st olma i\u015far\u0259si verdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Narahat olmay\u0131n, indi ke\u00e7ib ged\u0259c\u0259k\u2026 M\u0259\u015f\u0259di \u0130bad demi\u015fk\u0259n, art\u0131q \u201cbir n\u00f6\u00f6 ad\u0259tk\u0259rd\u0259 olmu\u015fam\u2026\u201d \u2013 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc toxdad\u0131b davam etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. \u2013 Dem\u0259li, h\u0259, orda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ax\u0131\u2026 \u0130lk vaxtlar quru olsa da, zibil atma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131lar. K\u00fcl\u0259k ba\u015fqa yerl\u0259rin zibill\u0259rini d\u0259 g\u0259tirib bizim zirz\u0259miy\u0259 y\u0131\u011fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Arada-b\u0259r\u0259d\u0259 ya binan\u0131n sakinl\u0259ri, ya s\u00fcp\u00fcrg\u0259\u00e7il\u0259r t\u0259mizl\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Sonra \u00f6lk\u0259mizin m\u00fcxt\u0259lif b\u00f6lg\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 xidm\u0259td\u0259 olark\u0259n m\u0259zuniyy\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 v\u0259 ya q\u0131sa m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 valideynl\u0259rim\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 art\u0131q zirz\u0259minin su il\u0259 dolmu\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Ordudan t\u0259rxis olunub h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik valideyinl\u0259rimin yan\u0131na yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bizim su il\u0259 binam\u0131za \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131rl\u0131 bina\u201d deyildiyini \u00f6yr\u0259ndim. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, m\u00fctamadi olaraq h\u0259min o su\u00e7\u0259k\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n t\u0131rhat\u0131r i\u015fl\u0259diyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u0259traf binalarda ya\u015fayanlar \u201cT\u0131r-t\u0131rl\u0131 bina\u201d des\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, \u00e7ox adam, \u0259l\u0259lx\u00fcsus nab\u0259l\u0259dl\u0259rin ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 ya telefonla, ya da el\u0259-bel\u0259 \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201d\u0131n yan\u0131ndayam v\u0259 ya \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201d\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u0259l dey\u0259, buran\u0131 bel\u0259 t\u0259qdim etdikl\u0259rinin \u015fahidi olmu\u015fdum. H\u0259tta binam\u0131z\u0131n birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259 \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201d adl\u0131 kafe d\u0259 vard\u0131. Ancaq bu yumurta-toyuq m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si kimi bir \u015feydir. Bilmir\u0259m, \u015f\u0131r-\u015f\u0131rdan ilhamlan\u0131b kafenin ad\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 qoyublar, yoxsa kafey\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bina bel\u0259 tan\u0131n\u0131b\u2026 N\u0259s\u0259, s\u00f6z\u00fcm onda yox, su\u00e7\u0259k\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 t\u0131rhat\u0131r i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259-i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259 \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201d\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda qoyub getdim bu m\u0259lum 44 g\u00fcnl\u00fck m\u00fcharib\u0259y\u0259. 26 sentyabr 2020-ci ild\u0259 art\u0131q tam haz\u0131r v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 T\u0259rt\u0259r yax\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda olan toplan\u0131\u015f m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n birind\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdik. Dem\u0259li, m\u0259n bu \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201dl\u0131 binam\u0131zdan hardasa bir h\u0259ft\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu tarix lap d\u0259qiqi 20 sentyabr 2020-ci ildir. Y\u0259ni bu tarixd\u0259 bizim zirz\u0259mini a\u011fz\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7irkab su il\u0259 dolu qoyub getmi\u015fdim toplan\u0131\u015fa\u2026 \u2013 Quru \u00f6ym\u0259 m\u0259ni yenid\u0259n tutur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u0130st\u0259yirsinizs\u0259, bir az dinc\u0259lin\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 H\u0259r \u015fey \u00f6z qaydas\u0131ndad\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u00dczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m, b\u0259s bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7irkab su haradan toplan\u0131r oraya? \u2013 Bir az da ehtiyatla B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m m\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 El\u0259 \u00f6z binam\u0131z\u0131n kanalizasiya sular\u0131, kafe v\u0259 dig\u0259r ia\u015f\u0259 obyektl\u0259rind\u0259n axan \u00e7irkab sular. H\u0259tta deyirdil\u0259r, qon\u015fu binan\u0131n da murdar sular\u0131 ora ax\u0131r\u2026 \u2013 M\u0259ni \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 \u00f6ym\u0259 tutur, m\u0259cbur olub aya\u011fa qalxmal\u0131 oluram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Siz \u00e7\u0131x\u0131n 10 d\u0259qiq\u0259 d\u0259hlizin sonundak\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q eyvanda havan\u0131z\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fin, m\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259m \u015famlar\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131n havas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 D\u0259hlizl\u0259 sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 gedim, el\u0259mi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 B\u0259li. El\u0259 g\u0259ldiyiniz t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 d\u00fcz, sona q\u0259d\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Deyil\u0259n eyvana \u00e7\u0131xsam da, siqaret \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259rin ucbat\u0131ndan bir udum t\u0259miz hava ala bilm\u0259dim. Zal\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bina tik\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 o boyda binaya 1\u00d71 balaca bir eyvan qoyublar. \u0130ki n\u0259f\u0259r eyni vaxtda dayansa g\u0259r\u0259k bir-birinin a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 girsin\u2026 N\u0259s\u0259, qay\u0131td\u0131m yen\u0259 44-\u0259. \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n kimi d\u0259 B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m he\u00e7 otrmam\u0131\u015f i\u015far\u0259 etdi ki, davam ed\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 B\u0259li, buyurun. Davam edin. S\u0259rb\u0259st olun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 H\u0259. Dem\u0259li, art\u0131q \u0259ks-h\u00fccum \u0259m\u0259liyyatlar\u0131 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. T\u0259xmin\u0259n 5-6 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra bizim b\u00f6lm\u0259ni dig\u0259r c\u0259b\u0259h\u0259y\u0259 \u2013 F\u00fczuli istiqam\u0259tin\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rdil\u0259r. M\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259ki qalan g\u00fcnl\u0259rimi d\u00fcz Xank\u0259ndin\u0259, y\u0259ni \u015eu\u015faya q\u0259d\u0259r o istiqam\u0259td\u0259 ke\u00e7irdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 D\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r bar\u0259d\u0259 daha \u0259trafl\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fa bil\u0259rsinizmi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 D\u00fcz\u00fc, vallah, tam s\u0259mimi dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa el\u0259 bir \u015fey yoxdur. \u0130\u015fd\u0259 m\u00fcharib\u0259. Yan\u0131nda dostlar-tan\u0131\u015flar \u00f6l\u00fcr, yaralan\u0131r\u2026 C\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr m\u00fcxt\u0259lif hadis\u0259l\u0259r\u2026 Bir onu dey\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m ki, sanki he\u00e7 n\u0259 hiss etmirs\u0259n. Ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259rin s\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 bir aidiyy\u0259ti yoxdur. \u00d6l\u00fcmd\u00fcr, o da n\u0259 vaxt g\u0259l\u0259r, g\u0259lsin\u2026 T\u0259xmini bax bel\u0259 bir ab-havan\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 olur insan. Y\u0259ni daha d\u0259qiqi m\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r ba\u015flayandan 2-3 g\u00fcn sonradan bit\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r, b\u0259lk\u0259 el\u0259 indi d\u0259 bel\u0259y\u0259m\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Ayd\u0131nd\u0131r. B\u0259s sonra? \u2013 bu sual lap m\u0259hl\u0259d\u0259ki mini marketin qad\u0131n sat\u0131c\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n sual\u0131na ox\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ani olaraq \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm qondu. B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m da bunu hiss etmi\u015f olmal\u0131 ki:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Niy\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz? N\u0259yi xat\u0131rlad\u0131n\u0131z? N\u0259 yad\u0131n\u0131za d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc? \u2013 m\u0259ni sual at\u0259\u015fin\u0259 tutdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 He\u00e7\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Siz nec\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz, orda n\u0259 ba\u015f verib ki, siz\u0259 bel\u0259 t\u0259sir edir? D\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r vaxt\u0131 he\u00e7 yaralanm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fcl yaralanm\u0131\u015fam. \u0130ndi d\u0259 b\u0259d\u0259nimd\u0259, onur\u011famda q\u0259lp\u0259 var. Ancaq bu \u00f6t\u0259n bir il \u0259rzind\u0259 h\u0259m burada, h\u0259m d\u0259 T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 yoxlamadan ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259m. Bu i\u015fin onlarla he\u00e7 bir \u0259laq\u0259si yoxdur. H\u0259kim ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 da siz\u0259 verdim, baxd\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 B\u0259li, s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259r\u0259 \u0259sas\u0259n bu bel\u0259dir. B\u0259s yax\u015f\u0131, bu \u00f6ym\u0259l\u0259r siz d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fd\u0259 olanda da ba\u015f verirdi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 B\u0259s bu hal ilk d\u0259f\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt ba\u015f verdi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 M\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n sonra m\u00fcalic\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m hospitaldan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b evimiz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n birinci g\u00fcn\u00fcn ax\u015fam\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bu nec\u0259 ba\u015f verdi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 H\u0259. Dem\u0259li, bel\u0259. M\u0259n el\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259timiz\u0259 gir\u0259n kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 inana bilm\u0259dim. \u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131rdan, t\u0131r-t\u0131rdan \u0259s\u0259r \u0259lam\u0259t qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Binan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r kafe\u201d d\u0259n \u0259lav\u0259. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u201cT\u0131r-t\u0131r\u201d ma\u015f\u0131n dayanan binan\u0131n giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131 olan yan t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 d\u0259 \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201d yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f su damc\u0131s\u0131 i\u015far\u0259li b\u00f6y\u00fck mavi r\u0259ngli plakat v\u0259 onun alt\u0131ndan zirz\u0259miy\u0259 giri\u015f var idi. M\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 ax\u015fam oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 yaz\u0131l\u0131 kafe a\u00e7\u0131q olsa da, mavi yaz\u0131l\u0131 ba\u011fl\u0131 qap\u0131l\u0131 yerin n\u0259 oldu\u011fnu anlaya bilm\u0259dim. Yax\u0131nl\u0131qda \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 su damc\u0131s\u0131 i\u015far\u0259li mavi r\u0259ngli \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201d yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f avtomobill\u0259r d\u0259 diqq\u0259timi \u00e7\u0259kdi. Ancaq d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 qalsa, zirz\u0259minin tam qurudularaq istifad\u0259 olunmas\u0131, h\u0259y\u0259timizin bel\u0259 abadla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131 m\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevindirdi. Bu ilk m\u00fcsb\u0259t t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcrtalar\u0131n t\u0259siri alt\u0131nda 4-c\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt qalxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, ev\u0259 nec\u0259 girdiyimi he\u00e7 indi d\u0259 xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram. Evd\u0259kil\u0259r g\u0259li\u015fimi g\u00f6zl\u0259s\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, \u00e7ox sevindil\u0259r. Ax\u015fam hospitaldan burax\u0131laca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bildikl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 g\u00fcnortadan s\u00fcfr\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yirmi\u015fl\u0259r. M\u0259n d\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n kimi \u0259ynimi d\u0259yi\u015fib, yuyunub otrdum s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259. Televizor da h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi a\u00e7\u0131q idi. Arada o\u011flumun suallar\u0131na cavab ver\u0259-ver\u0259 televizora bax\u0131r, s\u00fcfr\u0259d\u0259 olanlardan m\u0259\u015f\u011fulat edirdim. Q\u0259fil ekranda mavi r\u0259ngli su damc\u0131s\u0131 \u015f\u0259klind\u0259ki \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201d yaz\u0131l\u0131 su da\u015f\u0131yan avtomobili reklam \u00e7arx\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi ani olaraq bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f g\u0259ldi v\u0259 m\u0259ni ilk d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6ym\u0259 tutdu. Vanna ota\u011f\u0131na qa\u00e7ma\u011fa m\u0259cbur oldum. Anam da tibb i\u015f\u00e7isi oldu\u011funa v\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 yaraland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, h\u0259l\u0259 Birinci Qarba\u011f m\u00fcharib\u0259sind\u0259n kontuziyal\u0131 oldu\u011fumu bildiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 o saat sor\u011fu-suala tutub, b\u0259rk y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b-y\u0131x\u0131lmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u0259zilib-\u0259zilm\u0259diyini \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131d\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn suallar\u0131n sonunda da bax bel\u0259 deyirdi: \u2013 \u201cta yek\u0259 o\u011flansan, d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc de\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 B\u0259s siz n\u0259 cavab verirdiniz?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 N\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259m? Olan\u0131. Ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 yan\u0131ma m\u0259rmi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb partlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 kabin\u0259sind\u0259 oldu\u011fum \u201cKamaz\u201d \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 m\u0259n oturdu\u011fum t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n minaya d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. Ba\u015f\u0131m-beynim o q\u0259d\u0259r silk\u0259l\u0259nib ki\u2026 S\u0259h\u0259ri g\u00fcn\u00fc yeni halla ba\u011fl\u0131, yeni \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259 hospitala, sonra da ba\u015fqa bir \u00f6z\u0259l klinikaya yoxlanma\u011fa getdik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Hospitaldan sonra \u00f6z\u0259l\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 ehtiyac var idi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 D\u00fcz\u00fc, m\u0259n\u0259 qalsa, ehtiyac yox idi. Ancaq anam dedi ki, bunlar \u00e7ox soyuq m\u00fcnasib\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rdil\u0259r. H\u0259r \u015fey d\u0259 ba\u015fdan getdi\u2026 Bel\u0259 olmaz, d\u0259qiq yoxlanmal\u0131san. Sonucda h\u0259kiml\u0259r d\u0259, aparatlar da anam dey\u0259ni t\u0259sdiql\u0259di. Ham\u0131 bir fikr\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, bu \u00f6ym\u0259 k\u0259ll\u0259-beyin silk\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259sinin n\u0259tic\u0259sidir. Yazd\u0131lar, pozdular. Ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn yaz\u0131lan bahal\u0131-bahal\u0131 iyn\u0259-d\u0259rmanlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131b g\u0259ldik. O g\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fcz bir ildir m\u00fcalic\u0259 olunsam da, xeyri olmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bayaq bir s\u00f6z dediniz. Dediniz ki, ilk d\u0259f\u0259 ekranda \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201d yaz\u0131l\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 bu siz\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f g\u0259ldi. \u0130ndi xat\u0131rlaya bilirsinizmi, ilk d\u0259f\u0259 \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201d yaz\u0131lan su ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 harada g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcn\u00fcz?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 B\u0259li. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201d yaz\u0131lan su ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 biz Xocav\u0259ndd\u0259 olanda su g\u0259tirm\u015fdi. Sa\u011f olsunlar, h\u0259l\u0259 onlar \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 bel\u0259 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f s\u0259yyar hamamlar\u0131 da var idi. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 o hamamda da l\u0259zz\u0259tl\u0259 \u00e7immi\u015f\u0259m. Bilirsiniz, insanlar b\u0259z\u0259n \u00e7ox na\u015f\u00fck\u00fcr olurlar. He\u00e7 n\u0259yin q\u0259dir-qiym\u0259tini bilmirl\u0259r. M\u00fcharib\u0259 ba\u015flayandan bir aydan art\u0131q idi \u00e7immirdik. D\u00fcz\u00fc, he\u00e7 \u00e7ox vaxt i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259, \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc yuma\u011fa su tapm\u0131rd\u0131q. O ki qald\u0131 \u00e7imm\u0259k ola. Paltarlar\u0131m\u0131z da d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f zaman\u0131 \u0259ynimizd\u0259 islan\u0131b, qurumu\u015fdu. Bel\u0259 bir vaxtda biz Xocav\u0259ndd\u0259 olanda bu s\u0259yyar hamam ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259ldi. T\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n bizim b\u00f6lm\u0259 bir g\u00fcn orada dinc\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdi. Biz d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131ca \u00e7imib dinc\u0259ldik. O g\u00fcn he\u00e7 vaxt yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xmaz\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Dem\u0259li, \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201d yaz\u0131l\u0131 ilk su ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 Xocav\u0259ndd\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcn\u00fcz, sonra ekranda g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki avtomobill\u0259ri, eyni yaz\u0131l\u0131 ofisi xat\u0131rlay\u0131b \u00f6ym\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 B\u0259li. T\u0259xmini, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259n d\u0259qiqi v\u0259ziyy\u0259t bel\u0259dir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u0130ndi yen\u0259 h\u0259min binada ya\u015fay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259xanada m\u00fcayin\u0259 qaba\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdiyim psixoloqun t\u00f6vsiy\u0259si il\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycana qay\u0131dan kimi valideynl\u0259rim orada qalsalar da, m\u0259n ail\u0259ml\u0259 yeni m\u0259nzil\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015f\u00fck.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bax, bu, yax\u015f\u0131 hald\u0131r. Siz\u0259 d\u0259 qazil\u0259r\u0259 veril\u0259n m\u0259nzill\u0259rd\u0259n veribl\u0259r?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n bel\u0259 bir fikrimiz, y\u0259ni haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z var idi. \u0130\u015f bel\u0259 olunca valideynl\u0259rimiz d\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etdi, tez bir ev al\u0131b k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fck. Ancaq evi yax\u0131n bir qohumun ad\u0131na alm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Ad\u0131m qazi kimi siyah\u0131da var. N\u00f6vb\u0259m \u00e7atanda m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 ev ver\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Ail\u0259d\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259rsiniz?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 6 n\u0259f\u0259r. H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m, 2 o\u011flum, 2 q\u0131z\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Harda i\u015fl\u0259yirsiniz, pe\u015f\u0259niz n\u0259di?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Hal-haz\u0131rda icra hakimiyy\u0259tind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 N\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 bax\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Vallah, bir ixtisas\u0131m h\u0259rb\u00e7idir. Pe\u015f\u0259kar zabit\u0259m. \u0130kinci ixtisas\u0131m da tarix m\u00fc\u0259llimi. Amma, hal-haz\u0131rda ba\u011fban i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l. B\u0259s n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bel\u0259 al\u0131nb?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 H\u0259. Bu da uzun m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir. Dem\u0259li, ordudan t\u0259rxis olunan ili Bak\u0131 T\u0259hsil \u0130dar\u0259sinin Bak\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259bl\u0259rind\u0259 bo\u015f olan \u201cH\u0259rbi r\u0259hb\u0259r\u201d v\u0259zif\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 ke\u00e7irdiyi i\u015f\u0259 q\u0259bul imtahanlar\u0131nda i\u015ftirak etdim. 40 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn baldan 39 bal toplam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Bu test-imtahandan \u0259lav\u0259, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 m\u0259rh\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259 ke\u00e7dik. Yad\u0131mdad\u0131r ki, h\u0259l\u0259 bu 40-dan 39 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u00fcsahib\u0259 m\u0259rh\u0259l\u0259sind\u0259 m\u0259ni \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 s\u0131xma-bo\u011fmaya salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar ki, bird\u0259n n\u0259s\u0259 h\u0259t\u0259r\u0259n-p\u0259t\u0259r\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t olar. G\u00f6rd\u00fcl\u0259r yox, h\u0259r \u015fey normald\u0131r. Nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, anadang\u0259lm\u0259 \u201coxuyan u\u015fa\u011fam\u201d, n\u00f6vb\u0259ti -vakansiya se\u00e7imi m\u0259rh\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259 buraxd\u0131lar. Yer se\u00e7dim, d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm 45 n\u00f6mr\u0259li m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259. Bak\u0131 T\u0259hsil \u0130dar\u0259sinin g\u00f6nd\u0259ri\u015fi il\u0259 getdim ora. M\u0259kt\u0259bin direktoru xan\u0131m idi. Yaz\u0131q bir sevinirdi ki\u2026 5-10 d\u0259qiq\u0259 yan\u0131nda oldum. B\u0259lk\u0259 10 d\u0259f\u0259 soru\u015fdu ki, m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259c\u0259ksinizmi? M\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 ki\u015fi m\u00fc\u0259llim g\u0259lm\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7ox sevinirdi. Prosedur g\u0259r\u0259yi bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 rayon s\u0259f\u0259rb\u0259rlik idar\u0259si il\u0259 d\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131r\u0131lmal\u0131 idi. M\u0259kt\u0259bin direktoru rayon s\u0259f\u0259rb\u0259rlik idar\u0259sin\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t yaz\u0131b verdi, getdim ora. Dem\u0259li, m\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 kimi ki, m\u0259ni \u2013 s\u0259n\u0259di q\u0259bul ed\u0259c\u0259kdi, art\u0131q mobil telefonla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. E\u015fitdiyimi, onun a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xan kimi siz\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131ram: \u2013 \u201c\u2026Ay\u0259, narahat olma. Bak\u0131 T\u0259hsil m\u0259nd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz imtahan ke\u00e7irdib g\u00f6nd\u0259rib onlar\u0131. T\u0259kc\u0259 s\u0259nin yerin\u0259 deyil, b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259kt\u0259bl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259ribl\u0259r. Bo\u015f \u015feydi. \u00dcr\u0259yini buz kimi saxla. M\u0259n dabro verm\u0259s\u0259m, onlar n\u0259 kar\u0259dir\u2026 \u0130st\u0259yirl\u0259r lap 100 adam g\u00f6nd\u0259rsinl\u0259r. S\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sal a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, i\u015finl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful ol\u2026\u201d \u2013 n\u0259s\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259dim dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131 qurtard\u0131. G\u0259li\u015fimin s\u0259b\u0259bini dey\u0259nd\u0259n sonra m\u0259lum oldu ki, m\u0259n el\u0259 bu adam\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m. S\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rim\u0259 v\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b direktorunun yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fcraci\u0259t\u0259 baxd\u0131. Dedi ki, m\u00fcraci\u0259t d\u00fczg\u00fcn formada yaz\u0131lmay\u0131b. N\u0259s\u0259, d\u00fcz 3 d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259n o m\u00fcraci\u0259ti d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qald\u0131m. Sa\u011f olsun m\u0259kt\u0259b direktoru, etiraz etm\u0259d\u0259n 3 d\u0259f\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259ti yenid\u0259n yazd\u0131r\u0131b, m\u00f6h\u00fcrl\u0259di\u2026 Ancaq sonuc olaraq, m\u0259n o m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259si olmad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 B\u0259s n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 tarix m\u00fc\u0259llimi i\u015fl\u0259mirsiniz?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 El\u0259 bilirsiniz onu yoxlamam\u0131\u015fam? Onu da d\u00fcz 3 d\u0259f\u0259 yoxlam\u0131\u015fam. M\u0130Q-d\u0259ki, r\u0259ngli ka\u011f\u0131z \u0259m\u0259liyyatlar\u0131, vaxt v\u0259 suallarla manipulyasiyalar\u2026 N\u0259s\u0259, sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 60-dan 46 bal toplam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u018fslind\u0259 bu ikinci ixtisas\u0131 almaqda m\u0259qs\u0259dim \u0259n ucqar da\u011f k\u0259ndl\u0259rinin birind\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k olub. El\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259f\u0259rb\u0259rlik idar\u0259sinin m\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6z x\u0259tti il\u0259 yaz\u0131b verdiyi \u015f\u0259xsi mobil n\u00f6mr\u0259sin\u0259 z\u0259ng etm\u0259dim. \u00c7\u00fcnki Bak\u0131dansa rayonlar\u0131n birind\u0259 ucqar k\u0259ndd\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k m\u0259n\u0259 daha maraql\u0131, cazib\u0259dar v\u0259 eyni zamnda faydal\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u0130ki tur ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131qdan sonra yen\u0259 vakant yerl\u0259rd\u0259n he\u00e7 birin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Maraql\u0131d\u0131r ki, art\u0131q ad\u0131n\u0131 \u0259zb\u0259r bildiyim da\u011f k\u0259ndl\u0259ri var idi ki, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 se\u00e7iml\u0259rd\u0259n sonra oran\u0131 se\u00e7s\u0259m d\u0259, n\u0259 m\u0259n o m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm, n\u0259 d\u0259 o yer dolurdu. Yer vakant, m\u0259n is\u0259 i\u015fsiz qal\u0131rd\u0131m. Bel\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 elan g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, T\u0259hsil Nazirliyinin \u0130nsan Resurslar\u0131 \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sinin m\u00fcdiri Kamalzad\u0259 namiz\u0259dl\u0259ri q\u0259bul edir. M\u0259n d\u0259 elektron qaydada q\u0259bula yaz\u0131ld\u0131m. Sa\u011f olsun, qeyd olunan vaxtda q\u0259buluna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bildim. Bu sual\u0131 eynil\u0259 ona verdim ki, nec\u0259 olur, h\u0259r se\u00e7imd\u0259n sonra bel\u0259 yerl\u0259r bo\u015f qal\u0131r, biz d\u0259 i\u015fsiz? O, sad\u0259c\u0259, \u00e7iynini \u00e7\u0259kib, masan\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki komp\u00fcter\u0259 i\u015far\u0259 etdi v\u0259 dedi: \u2013 \u201cBizlik bir \u015fey yoxdur\u201d. M\u0259n bir az da ir\u0259li gedib bildirdim ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 istisna hallar kimi m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259s\u0259 etm\u0259k olar, Bak\u0131 ist\u0259mir\u0259m ki, h\u0259r il, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bo\u015f qalan v\u0259 ya g\u0259nc q\u0131zlar\u0131n bir illik tutub getm\u0259dikl\u0259ri ucqar bir da\u011f k\u0259ndind\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn sonuna q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fc\u0259llim i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Cavab is\u0259 q\u0259ti olaraq bel\u0259 oldu: \u2013 \u201cBiz siz dey\u0259n kimi ekskl\u00fcziv he\u00e7 n\u0259 ed\u0259 bilm\u0259rik\u2026\u201d. V\u0259 m\u0259n bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259n sonra M\u0130Q imtahanlar\u0131nda i\u015ftirak etm\u0259dim. Sonra da m\u00fcharib\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Yenid\u0259n ordu. Yenid\u0259n hospital. V\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz ki, indii d\u0259 sizin q\u0259bulunuzdayam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 B\u0259s, bu ba\u011fbanl\u0131q n\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Hospitaldan \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b yoxlad\u0131lar. V\u0259 son q\u0259rar bel\u0259 oldu ki, he\u00e7 bir \u0259lillik d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259sind\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t ged\u0259 bilm\u0259z. Bu yaralar ham\u0131s\u0131 y\u00fcng\u00fcl yarad\u0131r. Onur\u011fada v\u0259 b\u0259d\u0259nimin dig\u0259r yerl\u0259rind\u0259 qalan q\u0259lp\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 el\u0259-bel\u0259, ziyans\u0131z m\u00fcharib\u0259 yadigarlar\u0131d\u0131r. Zamanla onlar\u0131 da \u00e7\u0131xartmaq olar. K\u0259nardan baxanda, bir d\u0259 bu \u015fo\u011f\u0259rib televizorda h\u0259yat tamam ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 real h\u0259yatda olanlarla he\u00e7 kim bar\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259mir. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, bax m\u0259nim art\u0131q bir ildir \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kdiyim bu \u00f6ym\u0259nin he\u00e7 bir ad\u0131 yoxdur. \u0130st\u0259r k\u0259ll\u0259-beyin travmas\u0131 kimi, ist\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259 indi siz, sizd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l d\u0259 t\u00fcrk h\u0259kim-psixoloqlar\u0131n ara\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 hal kimi. Halbuki gec\u0259m-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcm yoxdur. Bir d\u0259 ki, indi n\u0259inki h\u0259r adama \u0259lillik t\u0259yin etmirl\u0259r, h\u0259tta Birinci Qaraba\u011f m\u00fcharib\u0259si i\u015ftirak\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131ndan \u00e7oxunun t\u0259qa\u00fcdl\u0259rini k\u0259sibl\u0259r. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, n\u0259 q\u0259zetd\u0259n oxumursunuz, n\u0259 kitabdan. Real m\u0259nim iki sinif yolda\u015f\u0131m olan \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m Birinci Qaraba\u011f m\u00fcharib\u0259si i\u015ftirak\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n 25 ild\u0259n art\u0131q zaman \u0259rzind\u0259 ald\u0131qlar\u0131 t\u0259qa\u00fcdl\u0259ri k\u0259sibl\u0259r. Halbuki onlar h\u0259l\u0259 o zaman a\u011f\u0131r yaralar ald\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u00fcharib\u0259 getdiyi zaman ordudan t\u0259rxis olunmu\u015fdular. V\u0259 el\u0259 o vaxtdan da onlara t\u0259qa\u00fcd t\u0259yin olunmu\u015fdu. Bunlar\u0131 d\u0259qiq bildiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn siz\u0259 dedim. Yeni m\u0259nzil almaq, davaml\u0131 m\u00fcayin\u0259 v\u0259 m\u00fcalic\u0259l\u0259r, bunlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 pul t\u0259l\u0259b edir. \u018fld\u0259-ovucda n\u0259 var idi ham\u0131s\u0131 getdi. \u018fslind\u0259 m\u0259nim he\u00e7 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k fikrim yox idi. M\u0259n DOST m\u0259rk\u0259zin\u0259 sosial m\u00fcavin\u0259t almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t alma\u011fa getmi\u015fdim. Oradak\u0131 dostlardan biri h\u0259rt\u0259rfli m\u0259ni sor\u011fu-sual ed\u0259nd\u0259n, s\u0259nd\u0259dl\u0259riml\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olandan sonra ba\u015fa sald\u0131 ki, \u0259mi, m\u00fctl\u0259q yar\u0131m\u015ftat da olsa, i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. Dedim ki, ta i\u015fim olandan sonra yard\u0131m\u0131 neynir\u0259m ki, el\u0259 maa\u015f\u0131mla ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b birt\u0259h\u0259r dolanaram. M\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 des\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131? Dedi ki, \u0259mi, u\u015faqlar \u00e7ox balaca olsa idi, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131z i\u015fl\u0259diyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 siz i\u015fsiz olsan\u0131z da, sosial m\u00fcavin\u0259t ala bil\u0259rdiniz, ancaq indi u\u015faqlar b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr. Siz sosial m\u00fcavin\u0259t almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259r\u0259k ad\u0131n\u0131za bir i\u015f olsun. M\u0259nim d\u0259 mat\u0131m-mutum qurudu, qald\u0131m bel\u0259. Sa\u011f olsun, u\u015faq el\u0259 \u015firin-\u015firin dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, he\u00e7 n\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. El\u0259 onun m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259ti \u2013 g\u00f6nd\u0259ri\u015fi il\u0259 getdim icra hakimiyy\u0259tin\u0259. Orda da, sa\u011f olsunlar, el\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn qazi oldu\u011fuma g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259ni i\u015fl\u0259 t\u0259min etdil\u0259r. \u0130ndi 270 manat oradan maa\u015f al\u0131ram, t\u0259xmin\u0259n bir o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 sosial m\u00fcavin\u0259t, \u00fcst\u0259g\u0259l, m\u00fcharib\u0259 veteran\u0131 oldu\u011fuma g\u00f6r\u0259 80 manat da Prezident T\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00fc al\u0131ram. Hayat yolda\u015f\u0131m da el\u0259 bunlar\u0131n c\u0259mi q\u0259d\u0259r maa\u015f al\u0131r. Min \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, dolan\u0131r\u0131q. Bax bel\u0259. Ba\u015fqa n\u0259yin aidiyy\u0259ti ola bil\u0259r, sizc\u0259, bu \u201c\u00d6YM\u018f\u201d m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 H\u0259. B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 M\u0259nc\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259nin k\u00f6k\u00fc indi o sizin valideynl\u0259rin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 binan\u0131n zirz\u0259misind\u0259ki \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r\u201ddad\u0131r. Ancaq biz bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni bel\u0259 bir-iki g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259 h\u0259ll ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yik. V\u0259 onu da \u0259lav\u0259 edim ki, sizin d\u0259 yeni \u00f6d\u0259ni\u015fl\u0259r etm\u0259nizi he\u00e7 ist\u0259mir\u0259m. \u018fksin\u0259, bax sizin \u00f6d\u0259ni\u015finizd\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atan bu 75 manat\u0131 da siz\u0259 qaytar\u0131ram. Art\u0131q he\u00e7 bir s\u00f6z v\u0259 t\u0259klif q\u0259bul etm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m. V\u0259 bu da m\u0259nim \u201dwhatsapp\u201d n\u00f6mr\u0259m \u2013 dey\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259ki ka\u011f\u0131z par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 uzadaraq davam el\u0259di \u2013 h\u0259r g\u00fcn 20:00-23:00 aras\u0131 ist\u0259diyiniz vaxt g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u00fc y\u0131\u011f\u0131b m\u0259niml\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259, m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259rsiniz. \u018fg\u0259r bunlar\u0131n he\u00e7 birini etm\u0259s\u0259niz d\u0259, n\u0259tic\u0259 bar\u0259d\u0259 m\u0259ni m\u00fctl\u0259q x\u0259b\u0259rdar ed\u0259rsiniz. Ancaq bir m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Siz he\u00e7 olmasa bir d\u0259f\u0259 o ofis\u0259 daxil olub, maraqlanm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcm bunlar burada n\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011fuldurlar? N\u0259 edirl\u0259r? B\u0259lk\u0259 onlar\u0131n he\u00e7 bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 aidiyy\u0259ti yoxdur?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Oldu! \u2013 B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n bu s\u0259mimiyy\u0259ti v\u0259 com\u0259rdliyi qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u0259lav\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Pulu v\u0259 ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 al\u0131b \u00fcr\u0259yimin ba\u015f\u0131na \u2013 i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n d\u00f6\u015f cibim\u0259 qoydum. Yaln\u0131z indi \u015famlar\u0131n art\u0131q \u00e7oxdan s\u00f6nd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc f\u0259rq etdim. \u00c7evrilib p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 baxd\u0131m. Hava qaralmaq \u00fczr\u0259 idi\u2026 B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m da bunun f\u0259rqin\u0259 varm\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131 ki, mizin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki \u201cbasma q\u0259l\u0259m\u201dl\u0259rd\u0259n birini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb d\u00fcym\u0259sini basan kimi divarlardak\u0131 lampalar yand\u0131. \u015eamlar yanmasa da, otaqda olan ab-hava dem\u0259k olar ki, d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdi. S\u00f6hb\u0259td\u0259 yaranm\u0131\u015f bu q\u0131sa fasil\u0259d\u0259n sonra m\u0259n davam etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bilirsiniz, B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, m\u0259n orada olmu\u015fam. Bir yox, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 olmu\u015fam. Onlar binan\u0131n alt\u0131nda yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n b\u00fct\u00f6v zirz\u0259mini ortadan b\u00f6l\u00fcbl\u0259r. Orada \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 ofis v\u0259 ambar yarad\u0131blar. Ofis v\u0259 ambar olan hiss\u0259ni yax\u015f\u0131 t\u0259mir edibl\u0259r. \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 zirz\u0259minin \u0259vv\u0259lki hal\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz olan adam\u0131n he\u00e7 a\u011fl\u0131na da g\u0259lm\u0259z ki, bu divar\u0131n arxas\u0131nda nec\u0259 \u00e7irkab su ola bil\u0259r. Ambar\u0131n \u00e7irkabla arak\u0259sm\u0259 divar\u0131nda \u00e7oxlu sayda su krantlar\u0131 var. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 bilirsiniz? O krantlardan g\u0259l\u0259n su il\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 \u201c\u015e\u0131r-\u015f\u0131r,  k\u0259hriz suyu yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f 25 L\u201d plasmas su qablar\u0131n doldurub, t\u0259miz su ad\u0131 il\u0259 m\u00fcxt\u0259lif t\u0259\u015fkilatlara, ofisl\u0259r\u0259, m\u0259nzill\u0259r\u0259 xidm\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rirl\u0259r. M\u0259n ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 ciddi maraqlanm\u0131\u015fam. Deyirl\u0259r ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rimiz var, m\u0259hsulumuz laboratoriyalardan ke\u00e7ib, bu krantlar olan divar\u0131n arxas\u0131nda x\u00fcsusi su t\u0259mizl\u0259yici, suyu insan orqanizmi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn vacib mikroelementl\u0259rl\u0259 z\u0259nginl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n, ionla\u015fd\u0131ran, yodla\u015fd\u0131ran, n\u0259 bilim n\u0259 ed\u0259n \u00e7oxfunksiyal\u0131 filtirl\u0259rimiz var. H\u0259r ax\u015fam ma\u015f\u0131nlarla bo\u015f su qablar\u0131 g\u0259lir. 24 saat fasil\u0259siz i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259 qablar doldurulur. G\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r saat 9:00-dan ax\u015fam saat 18:00-a kimi istirah\u0259t g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 daxil olmaqla, h\u0259r g\u00fcn m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259ril\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r. \u0130nternetd\u0259, televizorda, h\u0259r yerd\u0259 d\u0259 reklamlar\u0131 gedir. Yaz\u0131q camaat n\u0259 bilsin ki, bu k\u0259hriz hans\u0131 binan\u0131n zirz\u0259misind\u0259 qaynay\u0131r? \u0130nan\u0131n, tam s\u0259mimi deyir\u0259m, h\u0259y\u0259ti el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l t\u0259mir edibl\u0259r. Ofisl\u0259ri el\u0259 t\u0259miz, el\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259lidir ki, m\u0259hl\u0259y\u0259 birinci d\u0259f\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n adama m\u0259n indi siz\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131 he\u00e7 c\u00fcr inand\u0131rmaq olmaz. \u0130lk \u0259vv\u0259l m\u0259n k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcb bu b\u0259ladan can\u0131m\u0131 qurtarmaq ist\u0259dim. Fikirl\u0259\u015fdim ki, g\u00f6rm\u0259s\u0259m, yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259z, rahat olaram. Ancaq bel\u0259 olmad\u0131. H\u0259r Xocav\u0259nd yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259, h\u0259r onlar\u0131n reklam\u0131n\u0131, ya ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc saxlaya bilmir\u0259m. 85 kiloluq adam \u0259riyib qalm\u0131\u015fam 53 kilo. Tez-tez x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fck ki, n\u0259zar\u0259t\u00e7il\u0259r qanunsuz su x\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 qo\u015fulmu\u015f kafel\u0259rin, \u201cmoyka\u201dlar\u0131n su x\u0259tl\u0259rini k\u0259sirl\u0259r, sahibkarlar\u0131 c\u0259rim\u0259l\u0259yirl\u0259r. Bina sakinl\u0259ri ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 \u015fikay\u0259t edibl\u0259r. N\u0259zar\u0259t\u00e7il\u0259r g\u0259lib yoxlay\u0131b gedirl\u0259r. Qeyri-qanuni qo\u015fulma yoxdur deyirl\u0259r. \u015eirk\u0259tin d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259ri qaydas\u0131da. \u0130\u015f\u00e7il\u0259rin maa\u015f\u0131n\u0131, d\u00f6vl\u0259tin vergisin vaxt\u0131nda verir. H\u0259l\u0259 \u00fcst\u0259lik, xeyriyy\u0259\u00e7ilkl\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011fuldur. M\u00fcharib\u0259 vaxt\u0131 c\u0259bh\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z yard\u0131m edib. H\u0259rbi hiss\u0259 komandirl\u0259rind\u0259n, h\u0259tta bu yax\u0131nlarada \u015fanl\u0131 Z\u0259f\u0259rimizin ild\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc il\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259dar \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n M\u00fcdafi\u0259 Nazirind\u0259n f\u0259xri f\u0259rman al\u0131b. Adam\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 Allah var, h\u0259y\u0259ti yax\u015f\u0131 abadla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131blar. 30 il\u0259 yax\u0131n qurumayan zirz\u0259mini \u00e7irkab sudan, zir-zibild\u0259n t\u0259mizl\u0259yib qurudublar. \u018fn az\u0131 50-60 adama \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k veribl\u0259r. Xub. \u00c7ox sa\u011f olsunlar. Ancaq bir bunlara dey\u0259n, onlardan soru\u015fan yoxdur ki, a balam, bu bo\u015f su qablar\u0131 h\u0259r gec\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n-ma\u015f\u0131n g\u0259lir bura, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn boyu da dolu-dolu da\u015f\u0131n\u0131r, b\u0259s, bu k\u0259hriz \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259 hardan qaynay\u0131r? Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, \u00e7ox m\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcl i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck. Bilirsiniz, m\u0259nim bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259md\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rdar olandan sonra n\u0259 \u015fayi\u0259 burax\u0131blar?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u00c7ox maraql\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Deyirl\u0259r ki, \u0130lqar qarn\u0131qurdludu, \u00f6ym\u0259 ondand\u0131r. H\u0259tta m\u0259nim qurddan t\u0259mizl\u0259nm\u0259m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00fcalic\u0259 x\u0259rcl\u0259rini d\u0259 \u00f6z \u00fcz\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcbl\u0259r\u2026 Bax, son v\u0259ziyy\u0259t bel\u0259dir, B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 xan\u0131m. Bizimki qal\u0131b Allaha\u2026 O B\u00f6y\u00fck Allah \u00f6z\u00fc biz\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k oslun\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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