{"id":59975,"date":"2022-01-19T01:13:50","date_gmt":"2022-01-18T21:13:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/?p=59975"},"modified":"2022-01-19T01:13:55","modified_gmt":"2022-01-18T21:13:55","slug":"donuq-duygularin-canli-x%c9%99yali-agdam","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/?p=59975","title":{"rendered":"Donuq duy\u011fular\u0131n canl\u0131 x\u0259yal\u0131: A\u011fdam"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<div class=\"wp-block-media-text alignwide is-stacked-on-mobile\"><figure class=\"wp-block-media-text__media\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/fedai.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/20211225_095523.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-59980 size-full\"\/><\/figure><div class=\"wp-block-media-text__content\">\n<p class=\"has-large-font-size\"><strong>Vahid Qazi<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>\u018fsg\u0259rlikd\u0259 ev\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc min c\u00fcr x\u0259yal ed\u0259rdik. H\u0259r\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n atke\u00e7m\u0259z yol fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259r, evd\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259 s\u00fcrpriz haz\u0131rlayard\u0131. \u018fn q\u0259rib\u0259sini \u015famax\u0131l\u0131 \u018flirza fikirl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi, deyirdi d\u0131rma\u015facaq a\u011faca, \u00e7a\u011f\u0131racaq \u00e7\u0131x\u0131n burda g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259k.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>M\u0259n x\u0259lv\u0259tc\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259md\u0259nqalma q\u0259dim \u015fifonerimiz\u0259 girib yad s\u0259sl\u0259 anam\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259m\u0259yi x\u0259yal el\u0259mi\u015fdim. Anam bu qorxunc s\u0259sd\u0259n \u00fcrk\u0259c\u0259k, atam\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131racaq, haya bac\u0131m da g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. \u015eifonerin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7acaqlar v\u0259\u2026 m\u0259n uzaq Totsk s\u0259hras\u0131nda \u0259sg\u0259ri xidm\u0259timi bitirib qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fam. Bel\u0259c\u0259 ham\u0131m\u0131z xo\u015fb\u0259xt olacaqd\u0131q!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130\u015f\u011falda ke\u00e7\u0259n 28 ild\u0259 evimizi b\u0259lk\u0259 milyon k\u0259r\u0259 x\u0259yal etmi\u015f\u0259m. Amma o milyon k\u0259r\u0259nin he\u00e7 birind\u0259 s\u00f6z a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131m x\u0259yali qay\u0131d\u0131\u015f kimisi olmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>S\u0259b\u0259bini A\u011fdam xarabal\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 dola\u015fan g\u00fcn bildim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/fedai.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/agdam-1-nomreli-mekteb-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-59976\"\/><figcaption><strong>1n\u00f6mr\u0259li m\u0259kt\u0259bin divarlar\u0131<\/strong><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>***<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130st\u0259r ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131m\u0131z D\u00f6rdyoldan o \u00fcz\u0259, da\u011f\u0131d\u0131lm\u0131\u015f k\u0259ndl\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259, ist\u0259r A\u011fdama gir\u0259nd\u0259 duy\u011fular\u0131m\u0131 donmu\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fcm: keyimi\u015fdim, sakit idim. N\u0259 baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259, n\u0259 e\u015fitdiyimi dinl\u0259y\u0259 bilirdim. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259 dal\u0131ndan muzey eksponat\u0131na bax\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimiydim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Oxudu\u011fum 1 n\u00f6mr\u0259li m\u0259kt\u0259bin u\u00e7uq divarlar\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda da, m\u0259scidin minar\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b d\u00f6rd bir yana tama\u015fa ed\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 can\u0131mdak\u0131 duy\u011fu h\u00fcceyr\u0259l\u0259rinin donu a\u00e7\u0131lmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>H\u0259tta, orda \u2013 xo\u015fum g\u0259l\u0259n q\u0131zla \u201cg\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u201d yerind\u0259 d\u0259 titr\u0259m\u0259dim. Bir vaxt Lenin ba\u011f\u0131 olmu\u015f yerd\u0259 ayaq saxlad\u0131m. D\u0259rsd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda ba\u011f\u0131n bu tinind\u0259 q\u0131z g\u00f6zd\u0259n it\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k dayan\u0131b bax\u0131rd\u0131m. O da h\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7evrilir, q\u0259rib\u0259 lal o\u011flan\u0131n arxas\u0131nca g\u0259lm\u0259diyini, el\u0259c\u0259 baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb yoluna davam edirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015e\u0259h\u0259rin \u0259n m\u0259hr\u0259m bu yerind\u0259 bel\u0259 hal\u0131m d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259di.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dedim evimizi ist\u0259yir\u0259m! Lap u\u015faq kimi. Dedim y\u0259qin evimizd\u0259 diril\u0259r bu \u00f6l\u00fc duy\u011fular.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sa\u011f olsun ANAMA-n\u0131n \u0259m\u0259kda\u015f\u0131, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259mizi tapd\u0131. \u015eu\u015fa yolundan ayr\u0131lan k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259mizl\u0259 yeridim. \u201cK\u00f6hn\u0259 hamam\u201d\u0131n divarlar\u0131 da m\u0259nim duy\u011fular\u0131m kimi buz ba\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 sanki. El\u0259 qocalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 bu divarlar, el\u0259 bil\u0259rdin min ya\u015f\u0131 var. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 \u0259n qoca d\u0259y\u0259n bu divarlar oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/fedai.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/1640496552622_2_img-20211225-wa0004-1-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-59977\"\/><figcaption><strong>Bu pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcm<\/strong><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026Ax\u0131r ki, h\u0259y\u0259timizd\u0259y\u0259m. Evimizin u\u00e7uq divarlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda. \u018flimi s\u00fcrt\u00fcr\u0259m, b\u0259lk\u0259 oyanar duy\u011fular\u0131m \u2013 da\u015flar m\u0259ni tan\u0131m\u0131r. N\u0259 onikiv\u0259r\u0259q d\u0259ft\u0259r\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m ilk hekay\u0259-qaralamalar\u0131n \u0259lyazmalar\u0131n\u0131 gizl\u0259tdiyim zirz\u0259minin divarlar\u0131, n\u0259 h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r \u015eopenin polonezl\u0259ri sayaq musiqil\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259ni oyadan qara \u201cRostov Don\u201d pianomuzun durdu\u011fu ota\u011f\u0131n bo\u015f p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 yeri. ANAMA \u0259m\u0259kda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u201c\u0130nanma n\u0259s\u0259 qala burda, bu ev yand\u0131r\u0131l\u0131b\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259ri d\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259tmir m\u0259ni. \u00d6z\u00fcm da\u015fam, da\u015f! U\u00e7uq evin da\u015f\u0131. Da\u015f\u0131n can\u0131m\u0131 var t\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pill\u0259k\u0259nimiz yar\u0131yacan durur. \u00c7\u0131x\u0131b \u0259trafa bax\u0131ram. Qon\u015fular\u0131n evi bu q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131n deyildi ax\u0131 biz\u0259! Dar g\u00fcnd\u0259 hayan olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnm\u00fc bel\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131blar, q\u0131s\u0131n\u0131blar bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A\u011fdamda da\u011fm\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259rdin, haradan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 bu da\u011flar? \u018flimi uzatsam \u00e7atar X\u0131d\u0131rl\u0131, Xramord da\u011flar\u0131na. Onlardam\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin haray\u0131nam\u0131 y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcb g\u0259libmi\u015f?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026Buralar m\u0259n\u0259 yadd\u0131r sanki: n\u0259 bu pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam, n\u0259 bu evd\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam. \u0130sti d\u0259mirin\u0259 uzan\u0131b g\u00f6y\u00fcn \u0259nginliyind\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259 tutas\u0131 bulud g\u0259zdiyim taxtapu\u015f da yox idi, y\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130ll\u0259r uzunu gec\u0259l\u0259r s\u00fcbh\u0259c\u0259n x\u0259yal\u0131 yatma\u011fa qoymayan bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r indi niy\u0259 dondursun ki, m\u0259ni? B\u0259lk\u0259 zaman\u0131n da dondu\u011fu yerd\u0259 insan duy\u011fusunun buza d\u00f6nm\u0259si t\u0259bii hald\u0131r?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/fedai.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/img-20211225-wa0015.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-59978\"\/><figcaption><strong>Ba\u011fs\u0131z qalm\u0131\u015f h\u0259y\u0259timiz<\/strong><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00c7ox \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fc \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. Yunan\u0131standa Mikena xarabal\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131, Zevsin m\u0259b\u0259dini, Misird\u0259 Amon-Ran\u0131n Nil q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 Karnak M\u0259b\u0259d Kompleksini, Giza piramidalar\u0131n\u0131, T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 antik Pergenin k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rini, Kr\u0131m\u0131n Cuhut-Qala ma\u011fara \u015f\u0259h\u0259rini, Pantikapeyi turist kimi g\u0259zmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130ndi A\u011fdam\u0131 da turist kimi dolan\u0131ram?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>X\u00fcsusi n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259liyin \u0259m\u0259kda\u015f\u0131 A\u011fdam\u0131n ke\u00e7mi\u015find\u0259n, g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k i\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n, planlardan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. \u00c7ox m\u0259d\u0259ni o\u011fland\u0131r, ehmal-ehmal dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Dinl\u0259yir\u0259m. Sonra \u00f6z\u00fcm dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131ram \u2013 \u201cturist\u201dd\u0259n \u00e7evrilib \u201cb\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i\u201d oluram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonra da\u2026 susuram. Dilim a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131q edir, can \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa. Qay\u0131tmaq, getm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m burdan. \u0130ll\u0259r uzunu can atd\u0131\u011f\u0131m, Tanr\u0131 d\u0259rgah\u0131 bildiyim yerd\u0259n bu n\u0259 qa\u00e7maq ist\u0259yidir bel\u0259? \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qa\u00e7a bilirmi adam? B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcml\u0259 gizl\u0259dir\u0259m getm\u0259k ist\u0259yimi. N\u0259 dey\u0259r, nec\u0259 izah ed\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m bunu? \u015eahbulaq deyirl\u0259r, \u0130mar\u0259t deyirl\u0259r, ayr\u0131 yerl\u0259rin d\u0259 ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kirl\u0259r. T\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m. Getmir\u0259m!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ayr\u0131l\u0131r\u0131q! Qay\u0131d\u0131r\u0131q!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir ildir azad olunmu\u015f \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 qorxurdum. Qorxurdum ki, onu bu halda g\u00f6rs\u0259m, yadda\u015f\u0131ma h\u0259kk etdiyim, x\u0259yal\u0131mda qoruyub saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 adamlar\u0131, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri, parklar\u0131 il\u0259 diri qalan, ya\u015fayan u\u015faql\u0131q, g\u0259nclik \u015f\u0259h\u0259rim bu s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n sonra yox olar, hafiz\u0259md\u0259n silin\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Geri d\u00f6nd\u00fcy\u00fcm g\u00fcn\u00fcn gec\u0259si anlad\u0131m ki, soyuq \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259, donmu\u015f duy\u011fularla g\u0259zm\u0259yimin s\u0259b\u0259bi m\u0259nim x\u0259yal \u015f\u0259h\u0259rimi qorumaq, g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 diri saxlamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f. Tanr\u0131 i\u015fi idimi? B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>El\u0259 d\u0259 oldu, g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm o d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 m\u0259nim na\u011f\u0131l \u015f\u0259h\u0259rimi x\u0259yal\u0131mdan sil\u0259 bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>***<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>H\u0259r \u015fey u\u015faql\u0131q simsar\u0131m Yusifin yollad\u0131\u011f\u0131 mesajla ba\u015flad\u0131. \u201cGetdin A\u011fdama?\u201d soru\u015furdu. Yusifin mesaj\u0131 bir him\u0259 b\u0259ndmi\u015f kimi duy\u011fular\u0131n buzunu \u0259ritdi. Donu a\u00e7\u0131lan duy\u011fular can\u0131ma, ruhuma h\u00fccum \u00e7\u0259kdi. Yaln\u0131z ona dey\u0259 bil\u0259rdim \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri. El\u0259 ist\u0259dim ki, el\u0259 indic\u0259 yan\u0131mda ola. Z\u0259ng vurmaq ist\u0259dim, el\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259dim, s\u0259sli mesaj g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259k d\u0259 al\u0131nmad\u0131 \u2013 q\u0259h\u0259r xirtd\u0259yimd\u0259 d\u00fcy\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonra n\u0259 oldu? Oldu n\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonras\u0131 qoy \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 qals\u0131n, dostum oxucu. Yad\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259r b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 o \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 h\u0259sr etdiyim kitabda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m: \u201cKi\u015fi iki \u015fey haqda dan\u0131\u015fmaz \u2013 bir sevgil\u0259rind\u0259n, bir d\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131ndan\u201d. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmay\u0131m. Qoy ba\u015f-ba\u015fa qalaq: Sevgim, A\u011fr\u0131m, bir d\u0259 m\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Amma yox, birini deyim. \u0130ndi dey\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m. O vaxtlar sevgil\u0259riml\u0259 yaln\u0131z \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131m. Dostlar m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r, s\u0259ninki sevm\u0259k deyil deyirdil\u0259r. \u0130ld\u0259 birini sevirs\u0259n, deyirdil\u0259r. \u018fsl sevgi onlar\u0131n imi\u015f guya. Sirda\u015f\u0131ma bel\u0259 o biri sevgil\u0259rimd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fmazd\u0131m. N\u0259 Kramskoyun ota\u011f\u0131m\u0131n divar\u0131na vurdu\u011fum \u201cNam\u0259lum qad\u0131n\u201d\u0131ndan, n\u0259 ABBA-n\u0131n sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259ri vard\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn sevgil\u0259riml\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131yla s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259rdim, bir kims\u0259nin e\u015fid\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi bir s\u0259sl\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/fedai.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/agdam-musavi-kucesi.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-59979\"\/><figcaption><strong>Lenin ba\u011f\u0131ndan g\u0259l\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259<\/strong><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>A\u011fr\u0131msa m\u0259niml\u0259 qals\u0131n, dan\u0131\u015fmay\u0131m!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cEvimizi tapd\u0131m!\u201d Yusif\u0259 birc\u0259 bunu yaza bildim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>***<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Niy\u0259 A\u011fdam xarabal\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 dola\u015fanda m\u0259hz \u0259sg\u0259rlikd\u0259n qay\u0131d\u0131\u015f x\u0259yal\u0131n\u0131n yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sini sonra anlad\u0131m. El\u0259 o donuq duy\u011fular\u0131n sirrini d\u0259 onda bildim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bildim ki, adam\u0131 ya\u015fadan \u201cS\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n var!\u201d nidas\u0131d\u0131r. \u00d6mr\u00fcn bir \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda anlay\u0131rsan ki, s\u0259nin xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin bu nidaya ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r. Lap d\u00fcnyan\u0131n o ba\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259nin, s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc dar\u0131xan\u0131n varsa, dem\u0259k diris\u0259n v\u0259 \u2026ya\u015famaq g\u00f6z\u0259ldir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O g\u00fcn getdiyim yerd\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n yox idi. Da\u015flar bel\u0259 unutmu\u015fdu m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O yerd\u0259 qalsayd\u0131m bu ill\u0259r uzunu, \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 unudard\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026Amma na\u011f\u0131l \u015f\u0259h\u0259rimd\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r var, bilir\u0259m. Ged\u0259c\u0259m ora. X\u0259lv\u0259tc\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259md\u0259nqalma q\u0259dim \u015fifonerimiz\u0259 girib yad s\u0259sl\u0259 anam\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. Anam bu qorxunc s\u0259sd\u0259n \u00fcrk\u0259c\u0259k, atam\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131racaq, haya bac\u0131m da g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. El\u0259 evimizin piano\u00e7u kiray\u0259ni\u015fin q\u0131zlar\u0131 da. \u015eifonerin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7acaqlar v\u0259\u2026 m\u0259n 28 ilin ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. Bel\u0259c\u0259 ham\u0131m\u0131z xo\u015fb\u0259xt olaca\u011f\u0131q!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bilir\u0259m, burada \u0259vv\u0259lkind\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015f\u0259h\u0259r sal\u0131nacaq. \u201cX\u0259yal memar\u0131\u201d adl\u0131 essemd\u0259 t\u0259svir el\u0259diyimd\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l A\u011fdam tikil\u0259c\u0259k. Amma o, m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox balalar\u0131n, n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rin \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri olacaq.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>M\u0259nim olansa yadda\u015f\u0131mda, ruhumda qaland\u0131r. Donuq duy\u011fularda bel\u0259 canl\u0131 x\u0259yal kimi ya\u015fayan \u015f\u0259h\u0259r!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026Bilmir\u0259m dey\u0259 bildimmi dem\u0259k ist\u0259diyimi\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em><strong>P.S. A\u011fdama s\u0259f\u0259rin ba\u015f tutmas\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik dostum, Diasporla \u0130\u015f \u00fczr\u0259 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Komit\u0259sinin \u015f\u00f6b\u0259 m\u00fcdiri V\u0259sil\u0259 Vahidq\u0131z\u0131na, komit\u0259nin r\u0259hb\u0259rliyin\u0259, evimizi v\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn do\u011fma olan ba\u015fqa yerl\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u0259yim\u0259 yard\u0131m etdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Qaraba\u011f \u00fczr\u0259 n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259liyin, ANAMA-n\u0131n \u0259m\u0259kda\u015flar\u0131na t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Vahid Qazi \u018fsg\u0259rlikd\u0259 ev\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc min c\u00fcr x\u0259yal ed\u0259rdik. H\u0259r\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n atke\u00e7m\u0259z yol fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259r, evd\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259 s\u00fcrpriz haz\u0131rlayard\u0131. \u018fn q\u0259rib\u0259sini \u015famax\u0131l\u0131 \u018flirza fikirl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi, deyirdi<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[14],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-59975","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-kos"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/59975","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=59975"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/59975\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":59982,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/59975\/revisions\/59982"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=59975"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=59975"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=59975"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}