{"id":69955,"date":"2022-05-10T02:52:24","date_gmt":"2022-05-09T22:52:24","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/?p=69955"},"modified":"2022-05-10T02:52:27","modified_gmt":"2022-05-09T22:52:27","slug":"markesin-son-m%c9%99ktubu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/?p=69955","title":{"rendered":"Markesin son m\u0259ktubu"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p><strong>Qabriel Qarsia Markes (Kolumbiya)<br><br>Son m\u0259ktub (esse)<br><br><br>Tanr\u0131 bir anl\u0131q indiki v\u0259ziyy\u0259timi \u2013 sanki b\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f k\u00f6rp\u0259 kimi oldu\u011fumu unudub, can\u0131ma can ver\u0259-ver\u0259 m\u0259ni m\u00fckafatland\u0131rsa, a\u011fl\u0131mdan ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi dil\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259zdim, amma \u0259n az\u0131 dil\u0259 g\u0259tirdikl\u0259rimi t\u0259f\u0259rr\u00fcat\u0131yla a\u011fl\u0131mdan ke\u00e7ir\u0259r v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rdim. H\u0259r \u015feyin maddi t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rin\u0259 deyil, m\u0259nas\u0131na d\u0259y\u0259r ver\u0259rdim. Az yatar, az yuxu g\u00f6r\u0259r, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yumdu\u011fum h\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259 60 saniy\u0259 i\u015f\u0131qdan m\u0259hrum oldu\u011fuma t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259n\u0259rdim. \u0130nsan bu h\u0259yat e\u015fqind\u0259n imtina ets\u0259, qocalar. Ba\u015fqalar\u0131 dayananda yerim\u0259y\u0259 davam ed\u0259r, ba\u015fqalar\u0131 yatanda oyaq qalma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fard\u0131m. Ba\u015fqalar\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fanda susub qulaq asar, \u015fokoladl\u0131 dondurman\u0131n dad\u0131ndan z\u00f6vq alard\u0131m.<br><br>\u018fg\u0259r Tanr\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 azca \u00f6m\u00fcr vers\u0259, sad\u0259 geyin\u0259r, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 sar\u0131 \u00e7evir\u0259r, yaln\u0131z v\u00fccuduma yox, ruhumu da b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131lpaql\u0131\u011f\u0131yla n\u0259z\u0259r yetir\u0259rdim. Tanr\u0131m, \u0259g\u0259r imkan\u0131m olsayd\u0131, i\u00e7imin b\u00fct\u00fcn nifr\u0259tini buzun alt\u0131nda basd\u0131r\u0131b, G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259rdim.<br><br>G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 Van Qoqun r\u0259sml\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r, Benedettinin \u015feirl\u0259rini s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259r, serenadalar oxuyard\u0131m. G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131mla g\u00fcll\u0259ri sulayar, v\u00fccuduma batan tikanlar\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 hiss el\u0259y\u0259-el\u0259y\u0259, dodaq q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131s\u0131na ox\u015fayan tac yarpaqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6pm\u0259k ist\u0259rdim.<br><br>Tanr\u0131m, bir qurtumluq h\u0259yat\u0131m olsayd\u0131&#8230; El\u0259 g\u00fcn olmazd\u0131 ki, qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn insanlara sevgimi bildirm\u0259yim. B\u00fct\u00fcn qad\u0131n v\u0259 ki\u015fil\u0259ri \u0259n sevdiyim insanlar olduqlar\u0131na bir-bir inand\u0131rard\u0131m. \u00d6z\u00fcm d\u0259 sevgi i\u00e7ind\u0259 ya\u015fayard\u0131m. Ki\u015fil\u0259r\u0259 qocalanda sevgid\u0259n imtina etm\u0259kl\u0259rinin n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259hv h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t oldu\u011funu ba\u015fa salard\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnki insan e\u015fqsiz qalan andan qocal\u0131r. U\u015faqlara qanad ver\u0259r, u\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131 is\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259rinin \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 \u015f\u0259rait yaradard\u0131m. Ah\u0131llara \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn qocal\u0131q yox, unutqanl\u0131qla ba\u011fl\u0131 bir x\u0259st\u0259lik oldu\u011funu izah ed\u0259rdim.<br><br>Ey insanlar, sizl\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7ox \u015feyl\u0259r \u00f6yr\u0259ndim. S\u0259n dem\u0259, yeni do\u011fulan k\u00f6rp\u0259 atas\u0131n\u0131n barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131xanda, \u0259slind\u0259, onu \u0259b\u0259di qandallay\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259hkum edirmi\u015f.<br><br>Sizl\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7ox \u015fey \u00f6yr\u0259ndim. Amma bu \u00f6yr\u0259ndikl\u0259rim daha n\u0259y\u0259s\u0259 yaramayacaq. \u00c7\u00fcnki ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bir \u00e7antaya y\u0131\u011f\u0131b q\u0131f\u0131llad\u0131m.<br><br>Daha \u00f6l\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Qabriel Qarsia Markes (Kolumbiya) Son m\u0259ktub (esse) Tanr\u0131 bir anl\u0131q indiki v\u0259ziyy\u0259timi \u2013 sanki b\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f k\u00f6rp\u0259 kimi oldu\u011fumu unudub, can\u0131ma can ver\u0259-ver\u0259 m\u0259ni<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":69956,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[14],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-69955","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kos"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69955","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=69955"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69955\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":69957,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69955\/revisions\/69957"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/69956"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=69955"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=69955"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=69955"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}