{"id":96841,"date":"2024-03-11T23:57:00","date_gmt":"2024-03-11T19:57:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/?p=96841"},"modified":"2024-03-11T23:56:58","modified_gmt":"2024-03-11T19:56:58","slug":"tarixsiz-s%c9%99hif%c9%99l%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/?p=96841","title":{"rendered":"Tarixsiz s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

M\u0259nc\u0259 \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 qeydl\u0259ri h\u0259r g\u00fcn etm\u0259kdir. G\u00fcnd\u0259lik tutmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r ki, m\u0259\u011fzin\u0259 varasan. He\u00e7 bir x\u0131rdal\u0131\u011f\u0131, ki\u00e7ik faktlar\u0131  h\u0259tta onlar qeyri m\u00fcmk\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u0259l\u0259r bel\u0259 itirm\u0259m\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r,  \u0259n ba\u015fl\u0131cas\u0131 onlar\u0131 sisteml\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. Bu stolu, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259ni, t\u0259nb\u0259ki kis\u0259mi nec\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259ms\u0259 el\u0259yazmal\u0131yam, \u00e7\u00fcnki m\u0259hz BU d\u0259yi\u015filib. Bu d\u0259yi\u015fikliyin \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc v\u0259 xarakterini d\u0259qiq m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

 M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n el\u0259 bu karton qab\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259k, m\u0259n onun i\u00e7ind\u0259 m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b qabarc\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 saxlay\u0131ram. G\u0259r\u0259k \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131b onu \u0259vv\u0259l v\u0259 sonra nec\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n ed\u0259m. Bax bu fonda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n d\u00fczbucaql\u0131parallelepiped\u2026 Bo\u015f \u015feydir, bu bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa d\u0259ym\u0259z. M\u0259hz el\u0259 bundan qa\u00e7maq laz\u0131md\u0131r- \u0259n ki\u00e7ik q\u0259rib\u0259liyin bel\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 n\u0259yis\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 t\u0259svir etm\u0259kd\u0259n. 

<\/a> M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259  g\u0259lir g\u00fcnd\u0259lik m\u0259hz el\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259  d\u0259  t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259lidir: h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ay\u0131q olursan, h\u0259r  \u015feyi \u015fi\u015firdirs\u0259n, dayanmadan qaydan\u0131 pozursan. Dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259  h\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259  m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n el\u0259 bu karton qaba v\u0259 ya dig\u0259r \u0259\u015fyaya qar\u015f\u0131 yen\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259nki hissl\u0259r oyana bil\u0259r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

 G\u0259r\u0259k h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 buna haz\u0131r olum, yoxsa o yen\u0259 d\u0259 barmaqlar\u0131m aras\u0131ndan s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k. He\u00e7 n\u0259 laz\u0131m deyil, sad\u0259c\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 v\u0259 ehtiyatla ba\u015f ver\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi qeyd etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 ki, m\u0259n art\u0131q sra\u011fag\u00fcn v\u0259 ya \u015f\u0259nb\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015f ver\u0259n n\u0259yis\u0259 d\u0259qiq t\u0259svir ed\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m, o vaxtdan \u00e7ox ke\u00e7ib. Ancaq onu dey\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m ki, n\u0259 bu n\u0259 ba\u015fqa vaxt sad\u0259c\u0259 \u201chadis\u0259\u201d adland\u0131rd\u0131qlar\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 ba\u015f verm\u0259yib. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

 \u015e\u0259nb\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc u\u015faqlar d\u0259niz\u0259 da\u015f at\u0131rd\u0131lar \u2013 \u201ck\u00f6k\u0259 bi\u015firdil\u0259r\u201d, \u2013 m\u0259n d\u0259 onlar kimi d\u0259niz\u0259 da\u015fatmaq ist\u0259dim. Sonra dayand\u0131m, da\u015f\u0131 atd\u0131m v\u0259 getdim. Y\u0259qin ki, q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, u\u015faqlar arxamca guld\u00fcl\u0259r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Xarici g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc bel\u0259dir. M\u0259nim \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n is\u0259 he\u00e7 bir d\u0259qiq iz yoxdur. M\u0259n n\u0259s\u0259 el\u0259bir \u015fey g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, iyr\u0259ndim, amma indi bilmir\u0259m da\u015fa bax\u0131rd\u0131m yoxsa d\u0259niz\u0259. Da\u015f hamar idi, bir t\u0259r\u0259fi quru, dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fi ya\u015f v\u0259 \u00e7irkli. M\u0259n onun k\u0259nar\u0131ndan barmaqlar\u0131m\u0131n ucu il\u0259 tutmu\u015fdum ki, \u0259lim \u00e7irkl\u0259nm\u0259sin. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

 Sra\u011fag\u00fcn daha \u00e7\u0259tin ke\u00e7di. Ona bir s\u0131ra t\u0259sad\u00fcfl\u0259r v\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn izaholunmaz anla\u015f\u0131lmazl\u0131qlar da  \u0259lav\u0259 olundu. Amma onlar\u0131n t\u0259sviri il\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259nm\u0259k fikrim yoxdur. H\u0259r halda ayd\u0131nd\u0131r: m\u0259n qorxu v\u0259 ya bu ruhda n\u0259s\u0259 hiss edirdim. \u018fg\u0259r ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259m ki, n\u0259d\u0259n qorxmu\u015fdum bu da ir\u0259liy\u0259bir add\u0131m ola bil\u0259r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

 Ayd\u0131nd\u0131r ki, d\u0259li olma\u011f\u0131m a\u011fl\u0131ma da g\u0259lmir,  \u0259ksin\u0259  m\u0259n d\u0259qiq anlay\u0131ram ki, tam  \u015f\u00fcurlu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259y\u0259m: d\u0259yi\u015fiklikl\u0259r \u0259traf d\u00fcnyaya xasd\u0131r. Amma buna \u0259min olmaq ist\u0259rdim. 
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   11-in yar\u0131s\u0131.
 B\u0259lk\u0259  d\u0259 bu d\u0259liliyin y\u00fcng\u00fcl tutmas\u0131 idi. Ondan iz d\u0259 qalmay\u0131b. Bu g\u00fcn \u00f6t\u0259n h\u0259ft\u0259nin q\u0259rib\u0259hissl\u0259ri m\u0259n\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259li g\u0259lir, onlar\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 deyil\u0259m. Bu g\u00fcn ax\u015fam m\u0259n \u0259traf m\u00fchit\u0259 \u0259la uy\u011funla\u015f\u0131ram,. hans\u0131sa  \u0259d\u0259bli burjuy kimi. Bu da m\u0259nim otel n\u00f6mr\u0259m, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri \u015fimal-q\u0259rb\u0259 bax\u0131r. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131da \u2013 M\u00fcharib\u0259 \u0259lill\u0259ri k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259si v\u0259 yeni va\u011fzal\u0131n tikinti \u0259razisi. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n Viktor Nuar bulvar\u0131nda yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n \u201cD\u0259miryol\u00e7ular\u0131n s\u0131\u011f\u0131naca\u011f\u0131\u201d kafesinin q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 v\u0259a\u011f reklam i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Paris qatar\u0131 indic\u0259  g\u0259ldi. Va\u011fzal\u0131n k\u00f6hn\u0259 binas\u0131ndan s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259r \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, da\u011f\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar. M\u0259n add\u0131m v\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259r e\u015fidir\u0259m. \u00c7oxlar\u0131 sonuncu tramvay\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir.  Y\u0259qin ki onlar p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259min alt\u0131ndak\u0131 qaz f\u0259n\u0259rinin yan\u0131nda m\u0259yus toplu hal\u0131nda dayan\u0131blar. Onlar bir ne\u00e7\u0259d\u0259qiq\u0259  d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259li olacaqlar- tramvay 11-\u0259 15 d\u0259qiq\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fdan tez g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Ka\u015f he\u00e7 olmasa bu gec\u0259 kommivoyaj\u00f6rlar (xarici \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259: ticar\u0259t agenti) g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259l\u0259r: o q\u0259d\u0259r yatmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki, \u00e7oxdand\u0131r yatm\u0131ram. Sad\u0259c\u0259 bir sakit gec\u0259, bir-yegan\u0259 sakit gec\u0259  v\u0259  h\u0259r  \u015fey qaydas\u0131nda olacaq. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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 art\u0131q qorxmal\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdur- kommivoyaj\u00f6rlar \u00e7oxdan g\u0259l\u0259rdil\u0259r. He\u00e7 olmasa c\u0259nab Ruana g\u0259l\u0259rdi. O h\u0259r h\u0259ft\u0259  g\u0259lir, ona ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259bb\u0259d\u0259 iki n\u00f6mr\u0259li ota\u011f\u0131 saxlay\u0131rlar- bide (fr.bidet- xarici cinsi orqanlar\u0131 v\u0259 anusu yumaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn fontanl\u0131 balaca vanna) olan\u0131. O h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259r, teztez yatmazdan  \u0259vv\u0259l \u201cD\u0259miryol\u00e7ular\u0131n s\u0131\u011f\u0131naca\u011f\u0131\u201d-nda bir st\u0259kan bo\u015fald\u0131r. Q\u0131sacas\u0131, o s\u0259s k\u00fcyl\u00fcl\u0259rd\u0259n deyil. Balaca, t\u0259mizkar, boyal\u0131 saqqall\u0131 v\u0259 parikli. Bu da o. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Onun pill\u0259l\u0259ri qalxmas\u0131na qulaq asanda sanki \u00fcr\u0259yimi n\u0259s\u0259 sancd\u0131- onun add\u0131mlar\u0131 nec\u0259  d\u0259sakitl\u0259\u015fdirir: h\u0259r \u015feyin qoyulmu\u015f qaydalarla ba\u015f verdiyi d\u00fcnyada n\u0259d\u0259n qorxasan? M\u0259nc\u0259 m\u0259n sa\u011fald\u0131m. Bu da tramvay, yeddilik. Mar\u015furut: sallaqxana- b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u0259mi doklar\u0131. O \u00f6z m\u00f6vcudlu\u011funu uca d\u0259mir cingiltisi il\u0259  x\u0259b\u0259r verir\u00c7emodan v\u0259 yatm\u0131\u015f  u\u015faqlarla basabas doldurulmu\u015f \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 o doklar t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259, zavodlar t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin \u015f\u0259rq hiss\u0259sind\u0259ki qaranl\u0131q t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259gedir. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

 Bu sonuncudan \u0259vv\u0259lki tramvayd\u0131, sonuncu bir saat sonra ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k. \u0130ndi uzan\u0131ram. M\u0259n sa\u011fald\u0131m, balaca q\u0131z kimi h\u0259r g\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u0259l yeni d\u0259ft\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6z hissl\u0259rimi yazas\u0131deyil\u0259m. G\u00fcnd\u0259liyi ancaq bir halda tutmaq olar\u2026 \u0259g\u0259r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00fc\u0259llif: Jan Pol Sartr \/\u00dcr\u0259k bulant\u0131s\u0131 roman\u0131 <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

M\u0259nc\u0259 \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 qeydl\u0259ri h\u0259r g\u00fcn etm\u0259kdir. G\u00fcnd\u0259lik tutmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r ki, m\u0259\u011fzin\u0259 varasan. He\u00e7 bir x\u0131rdal\u0131\u011f\u0131, ki\u00e7ik faktlar\u0131  h\u0259tta onlar qeyri m\u00fcmk\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u0259l\u0259r bel\u0259 itirm\u0259m\u0259k<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":96842,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-96841","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dbi-dusunclr"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/96841","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=96841"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/96841\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":98809,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/96841\/revisions\/98809"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/96842"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=96841"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=96841"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=96841"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}