N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 bird\u0259n o, ay\u0131ld\u0131. Sanki kims\u0259 onu silk\u0259l\u0259mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
S\u00fcbh \u00e7a\u011f\u0131 ba\u011fda a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin rahiy\u0259si qon\u015fu otaqdak\u0131 b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 v\u0259 formaldehidin k\u0259skin iyin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015faraq dal\u011fa-dal\u011fa i\u00e7\u0259ri daxil olurdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yuxudan sonra o, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259, sakitl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dey\u0259s\u0259n, s\u0259h\u0259r t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. A\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n mavi s\u0259ma da, bostandak\u0131 l\u0259kl\u0259rin suvar\u0131lmas\u0131 da bundan x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi.
O, yar\u0131qaranl\u0131q ota\u011fa g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u0259yacanl\u0131 sur\u0259td\u0259 bel\u0259 q\u0259fild\u0259n oyanmas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bini ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, o, yuxudayk\u0259n ota\u011fa kims\u0259 girib.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Amma o, t\u0259k idi, qap\u0131 da ba\u011fl\u0131yd\u0131: n\u0259 toxunan olmu\u015f, n\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin \u015f\u0259f\u0259ql\u0259ri p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259riy\u0259 s\u00fcz\u00fclrd\u00fc. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumub h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsiz halda uzand\u0131.
Gec\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc yuxunun t\u0259sirind\u0259n g\u0259ril\u0259n \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rini sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259, rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259rpa etm\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259y etdi. Qan d\u00f6vran\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259skin z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259rini bo\u011faz\u0131nda, sonra sin\u0259sind\u0259 hiss el\u0259di.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Daha sonra q\u0259fild\u0259n k\u00f6ks\u00fc t\u0259lat\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259ldi. \u00dcr\u0259yi uzun qa\u00e7\u0131\u015fdan sonra oldu\u011fu t\u0259k q\u0131sa, q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. O, yenid\u0259n yuxulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259ni x\u0259yal\u0131ndan ke\u00e7irtdi.
G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr ki, o, \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259 bir yuxu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu, qarabasma da ola bil\u0259rdi. Yoxsa onun bel\u0259 bir hala d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin\u0259 he\u00e7 bir \u0259sas yox idi.
Onlar \u00e7ox uzun bir qatarla, budaqlar\u0131nda meyv\u0259l\u0259r \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 qay\u00e7\u0131lar, \u00fclg\u00fccl\u0259r v\u0259 dig\u0259r iti, k\u0259sici \u0259\u015fyalar — bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, b\u0259rb\u0259r al\u0259tl\u0259ri bit\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fc bir \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259n ke\u00e7irdil\u0259r (Bunu indi xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram. Bel\u0259 yerl\u0259ri yuxuda tez-tez g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m). Yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr: m\u0259n\u0259 oyanmaq laz\u0131m idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O bu yuxunu tez-tez g\u00f6r\u0259rdi. Lakin he\u00e7 vaxt yuxudan bu c\u00fcr h\u00f6vlank oyanmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. A\u011faclardan birinin arxas\u0131ndan bu yax\u0131nlarda v\u0259fat etmi\u015f \u0259kiz qarda\u015f\u0131 \u0259li il\u0259 i\u015far\u0259 edirdi (O \u00f6lm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n qabaq da, bel\u0259 bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f vermi\u015fdi).
Qarda\u015f\u0131 \u0259l i\u015far\u0259l\u0259rinin he\u00e7 bir xeyri olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, n\u0259f\u0259si k\u0259sil\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n qatar\u0131n arxas\u0131nca qa\u00e7d\u0131. V\u0259 ax\u0131rda yer\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131lark\u0259n a\u011fz\u0131ndan k\u00f6p\u00fck da\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.
\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, bu, axmaq, qeyri-real bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc idi v\u0259 burada x\u00fcsusi el\u0259 bir \u015fey yox idi ki, narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011fa s\u0259b\u0259b olsun.
O, yenid\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu. Gicgahlar\u0131nda qan\u0131n s\u00fcr\u0259ti el\u0259 \u015fidd\u0259tl\u0259ndi ki, sanki onu yumruqla d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Budur, qatar dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131, h\u00fcznl\u00fc, bars\u0131z bir peysajdan ke\u00e7ir.
Bird\u0259n sol aya\u011f\u0131nda hiss etdiyi a\u011fr\u0131dan bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 peysajdan ay\u0131rd\u0131. Aya\u011f\u0131na baxd\u0131 — dar ayaqqab\u0131 geyinm\u0259k laz\u0131m deyil — orta barma\u011f\u0131nda q\u0259rib\u0259 bir \u015fi\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fc.
\u018flini adi qaydada cibin\u0259 sal\u0131b — sanki h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bu i\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmu\u015fdu — vinta\u00e7an\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131 v\u0259 \u00e7iban\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131.
Sonra vinta\u00e7an\u0131 yenid\u0259n g\u00f6y qutuya — ax\u0131 yuxu r\u0259ngli idi — yerin\u0259 qoydu.
\u00c7ibanda \u00e7irkli, sar\u0131mt\u0131l bir ipin ucu dim-dik dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 heyr\u0259tl\u0259nm\u0259d\u0259n, h\u0259min ipd\u0259 qeyri-adi he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259yib ehtiyatla onun ucundan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Bu, uzun, lap uzun bir ayaqqab\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131 idi. \u0130p he\u00e7 bir narahatl\u0131\u011fa, a\u011fr\u0131ya s\u0259b\u0259b olmadan \u00e7\u0259kildikc\u0259 g\u0259lirdi.
Bir anl\u0131q ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131: vaqonda ondan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 kim yox idi.
Kupel\u0259rin birind\u0259 qad\u0131n paltar\u0131 geyinmi\u015f qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O, g\u00fczg\u00fc qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayanaraq qay\u00e7\u0131 il\u0259 sol g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011fa c\u0259hd edirdi.
\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, bu, xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z yuxu idi. Ancaq o anlaya bilmirdi ki, \u00f6t\u0259n gec\u0259l\u0259r bundan daha d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli, a\u011f\u0131r yuxular g\u00f6rs\u0259 d\u0259, bu g\u00fcnki kimi t\u0259zyiqi qalxmam\u0131\u015f, rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 pozulmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Hiss etdi ki, \u0259ll\u0259ri buz kimidir.
B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 v\u0259 formaldehidin qoxusu getdikc\u0259 art\u0131r, d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z olurdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qalm\u0131\u015f yuxusunu yenid\u0259n davam etdirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu. N\u0259 is\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bir \u015fey haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb sakit-sakit n\u0259f\u0259s alma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k olard\u0131 ki, qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259fniyl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 hesab\u0131 \u00f6d\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saatdan sonra d\u0259fn b\u00fcrosuna getm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. K\u00fcncd\u0259 yorulmaq bilm\u0259y\u0259n c\u0131rc\u0131rama oxudu.
Otaq quru, q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q s\u0259sl\u0259 doldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
G\u0259rilmi\u015f \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259ri yava\u015f-yava\u015f bo\u015falma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Hiss etdi ki, \u0259z\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca rahatla\u015f\u0131r.
Yumu\u015faq yata\u011fa uzand\u0131. \u00c7\u0259kisini itirmi\u015f y\u00fcng\u00fcl b\u0259d\u0259ni xo\u015f bir yor\u011funluq duydu. \u018fzalar\u0131 sanki ona m\u0259xsus deyildi, onu torpa\u011fa ba\u011flayan \u00e7\u0259kisi d\u0259 yoxa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Halbuki, zooloji n\u00f6vl\u0259r n\u0259rdivan\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 xas yeri, y\u0259ni b\u00fct\u00fcn orqanlar\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b arxitekturaya malik sistem v\u0259 geometriyas\u0131 onu h\u0259min n\u0259rdivan\u0131n \u015f\u00fcurlu canl\u0131lar iyerarxiyas\u0131nda \u0259n y\u00fcks\u0259k pill\u0259y\u0259 qald\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\u018fl v\u0259 ayaq barmaqlar\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 nec\u0259 rahatl\u0131qla ke\u00e7irl\u0259rs\u0259, g\u00f6z qapaqlar\u0131 da g\u00f6z\u00fcn \u0259lvan qi\u015fas\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259c\u0259, yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u00f6rtd\u00fc.
T\u0259dric\u0259n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259td\u0259n qald\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn orqanizm sanki b\u00f6y\u00fck, vahid, ayr\u0131ca bir orqana \u00e7evrildi.
O — insan — \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fcz oldu. V\u0259 ba\u015fqa taley, daha d\u0259rin, m\u00f6hk\u0259m, \u0259b\u0259di, he\u00e7 vaxt pozulmaz, sonuncu yuxu qazand\u0131. O e\u015fidirdi. Bay\u0131rda — hardasa d\u00fcnyan\u0131n o ba\u015f\u0131nda — c\u0131rc\u0131raman\u0131n s\u0259si getdikc\u0259 yava\u015f\u0131y\u0131r.
V\u0259 tamam k\u0259silir. Zaman v\u0259 m\u0259saf\u0259 onun i\u00e7in\u0259 daxil olur, yeni v\u0259 sad\u0259 anlay\u0131\u015f qazanaraq b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fckc\u0259 \u015f\u00fcuruna hakim olan \u0259zabl\u0131 v\u0259 fiziki h\u0259\u015f\u0259ratla dolu, b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 v\u0259 formaldehidin k\u0259skin iyi hopmu\u015f maddi d\u00fcnyan\u0131 oradan silir.
Sakitc\u0259 — h\u0259r k\u00fcnc\u00fc rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131n h\u0259rar\u0259tin\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015f\u0259n — hiss etdi ki, onun uydurucu g\u00fcnd\u00fcz \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc nec\u0259 d\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fcld\u00fcr!
O, indi d\u0259 f\u0259r\u0259hli s\u0259yah\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259, sanki u\u015faq \u0259liyl\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f, riyazi \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalardan, sevgi a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131ndan v\u0259 cazib\u0259 q\u00fcvv\u0259sind\u0259n uzaq x\u0259yali, ideal bir d\u00fcnyaya ba\u015f vurdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dem\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tindir, o, yuxu il\u0259 reall\u0131\u011f\u0131n nazik s\u0259rh\u0259ddi aras\u0131nda n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r vaxt ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdi, amma xat\u0131rlad\u0131 ki, bird\u0259n, el\u0259 bil bo\u011faz\u0131na b\u0131\u00e7aq \u00e7\u0259kdil\u0259r. V\u0259 \u00e7arpay\u0131da dik oturdu.
Hiss etdi ki, onun \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f, \u0259kiz qarda\u015f\u0131 \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n ayaq t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 oturub. Yen\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki t\u0259k \u00fcr\u0259yi sanki y\u00fcmr\u00fcq kimi s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b bo\u011faz\u0131na el\u0259 t\u0131xand\u0131 ki, dik at\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u0259z\u0259 do\u011fulan \u015f\u0259f\u0259q, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn k\u00f6kd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f al\u0259tciyi il\u0259 sukutu pozan c\u0131rc\u0131rama, bax\u00e7an\u0131n \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndan \u0259sib g\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259rin meh — b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar onu real h\u0259yata qaytard\u0131. Ancaq bu d\u0259f\u0259 o, n\u0259d\u0259n diksindiyini xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131.
Bu q\u0131sa, yuxusuz ke\u00e7irdiyi d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 — m\u0259n indi bu haqqda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 hesabat verir\u0259m — h\u0259m\u00e7inin b\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259ni, ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, o, sanki he\u00e7 bir m\u0259nas\u0131 olmayan yuxu g\u00f6r\u00fcr.
\u018fslind\u0259 is\u0259 onun \u015f\u00fcurunda h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n ayr\u0131 m\u00f6vcud olan, idrak\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcqavim\u0259tind\u0259n, irad\u0259sind\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq beynind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer ed\u0259n daimi, d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259z bir sur\u0259t var idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u0259li, hans\u0131sa bir fikir — o, he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc bunu hiss etm\u0259mi\u015fdi — onu b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, i\u00e7ini doldurmu\u015fdu, b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na hakim k\u0259silmi\u015fdi. Sanki bir p\u0259rd\u0259 yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259n p\u0259rd\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn qalan fikirl\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0259rh\u0259d \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi.
Onun gec\u0259 v\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcz fikir dramas\u0131n\u0131n daya\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 ba\u015fl\u0131ca onur\u011fa s\u00fctunu qarda\u015f\u0131 idi.
\u018fkiz qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fc b\u0259d\u0259ni haqq\u0131nda fikir beynin\u0259 mismar kimi sanc\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259\u011fzin\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi.
Orada, onu x\u0131rda bir par\u00e7a torpaqda saxlad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131, g\u00f6z qapaqlar\u0131n\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f damc\u0131lar\u0131ndan s\u0259ks\u0259ndiyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckc\u0259 qorxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O, he\u00e7 a\u011fl\u0131na bel\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259zdi ki, z\u0259rb\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fccl\u00fc olacaq.
A\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n yenid\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri \u0259tir doldu. \u0130ndi bu rayih\u0259d\u0259n qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259ri basd\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f n\u0259mli torpa\u011f\u0131n qoxusu g\u0259lirdi. \u0130ybilm\u0259 duy\u011fular\u0131 daha g\u0259rgin i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131 v\u0259 onu qorxunc, heyvani sevinc b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc.
Sanki onun yaral\u0131 it kimi m\u0259l\u0259f\u0259 alt\u0131nda q\u0131vr\u0131laraq inild\u0259diyi andan art\u0131q bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saat \u00f6tm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.
Ancaq qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n sonuncu bo\u011fuq q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131 el\u0259 bil onun qurumu\u015f bo\u011faz\u0131na dolurdu. K\u00fcr\u0259yi il\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u015fi\u015fin lap i\u00e7in\u0259 soxulan a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 d\u0131rnaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 par\u00e7alamaq ist\u0259yirdi. \u018fkiz qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n can verdiyi son d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259ri xat\u0131rlad\u0131.
V\u0259 onun sabit, \u0259b\u0259di, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fc kimi reall\u0131\u011f\u0131n h\u00f6km\u00fc alt\u0131nda olub v\u0259 bu reall\u0131\u011fa \u00fcsyan ed\u0259n, can ver\u0259n heyvan kimi nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 unuda bilmirdi. Qarda\u015f\u0131 d\u0131rnaqlar\u0131yla h\u0259yat\u0131n ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 tik\u0259l\u0259rini y\u0131\u011fmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn divar\u0131 c\u0131rmaqlay\u0131rd\u0131.
Barmaqlar\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n qan h\u0259yat\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc kimi axd\u0131qca, a\u011fr\u0131 onun cismini doymaq bilm\u0259y\u0259n zal\u0131m qad\u0131n kimi \u0259ridirdi. Sonra o, \u00f6z\u00fc yorulma\u011fa vaxt tapmam\u0131\u015f \u0259zik-\u00fcz\u00fck, s\u0259liq\u0259siz yata\u011fa uzand\u0131. Aln\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259r basm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, k\u00f6p\u00fckl\u0259nmi\u015f dodaqlar\u0131nda \u0259cayib bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f donmu\u015fdu v\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm boz kimi b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259nini \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u00d6l\u00fc qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n qarn\u0131ndak\u0131 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli \u015fi\u015fi q\u0259fild\u0259n xat\u0131rlad\u0131.
(M\u0259n onu yumru — indi d\u0259 o, h\u0259min hisl\u0259ri ke\u00e7irirdi — daxil\u0259n \u015fi\u015f\u0259n, d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f kimi t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edirdim).
Sanki hans\u0131sa h\u0259\u015f\u0259rat \u00f6z caynaqlar\u0131n\u0131 onun daxilinin \u0259n d\u0259rin qatlar\u0131na uzad\u0131rd\u0131.
(O hiss etdi ki, orqanizmind\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 nasazl\u0131q yaran\u0131b. H\u0259tta bu f\u0259ls\u0259fi anlamda ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcl\u0259si olsa da).
(Y\u0259qin ki, m\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131ndak\u0131 \u015fi\u015fd\u0259n olacaq. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 bu x\u0131rda bir k\u00f6p olacaq. Sonra b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259c\u0259k, qol-budaq atacaq, b\u0259tnimd\u0259 d\u00f6l kimi b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259c\u0259k. Y\u0259qin ki, h\u0259min \u015fi\u015f i\u00e7imd\u0259 u\u015faqlunatik qeyziyl\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 , k\u00f6p kimi vurnuxanda hiss ed\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u0259skin a\u011fr\u0131dan qurtulmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259liyl\u0259 qarn\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131xd\u0131. Sonra h\u0259y\u0259canla \u0259ll\u0259rini qopaqp\u0259rv\u0259r, isti s\u0131\u011f\u0131naca\u011fa — b\u0259tnind\u0259ki u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131 tapmaq \u00fcmidiyl\u0259 qaranl\u0131\u011fa uzatd\u0131.
Onsuz da bu arzu \u0259l\u00e7atmaz idi. O, bunu bilmirdi ki, bir-birin\u0259 dola\u015fm\u0131\u015f, y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259si olan bu fantastik varl\u0131q uzun, sar\u0131mt\u0131l g\u00f6b\u0259k ba\u011f\u0131na \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259k.
(B\u0259li, y\u0259qin m\u0259nim d\u0259 m\u0259d\u0259md\u0259 — t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f qarda\u015f\u0131m kimi — \u015fi\u015f yaranacaq).
Bax\u00e7adan g\u0259l\u0259n qoxu getdikc\u0259 \u015fidd\u0259tl\u0259nir, xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z, \u00fcr\u0259k buland\u0131ran qoxuya \u00e7evrilirdi. Zaman el\u0259 bil s\u00fcbh \u00e7a\u011f\u0131 donmu\u015fdu.
P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n s\u00fcbh \u015f\u0259f\u0259ql\u0259ri q\u0131cq\u0131rm\u0131\u015f s\u00fcd\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Gec\u0259ni qon\u015fu otaqda saxland\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan formaldehidin g\u00fccl\u00fc qoxusu \u0259traf\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, bax\u00e7adan g\u0259l\u0259n qoxudan f\u0259rqliydi. Bu he\u00e7 d\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin \u0259trin\u0259 ox\u015famayan, h\u0259y\u0259can do\u011furan x\u00fcsusi bir \u0259tir idi.
Birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 duymaq b\u0259s idi ki, bu meyit qoxusu he\u00e7 vaxt unudulmas\u0131n.
Adam\u0131 t\u0259qib ed\u0259n, n\u0259f\u0259sini t\u0259ntid\u0259n bu formaldehid qoxusu anatomiya kabinetin\u0259 xas idi. O, loboratoriyan\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131: Spirt\u0259 qoyulmu\u015f daxili orqanlar, qu\u015flar\u0131n m\u00fcq\u0259vvalar\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Formalin hopdurulmu\u015f dov\u015fan\u0131n \u0259ti qaxaca d\u00f6n\u00fcr, \u00f6z elastikliyini itirib \u00f6lm\u0259z, \u0259b\u0259di formaldehidli dov\u015fana \u00e7evrilir. Bu qoxu haradand\u0131r? B\u0259li, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yegan\u0259 \u00fcsul.
\u018fg\u0259r insan\u0131n damarlar\u0131n\u0131 formalinl\u0259 doldursan, spirtl\u0259nmi\u015f anotomik n\u00fcmun\u0259cikl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259k.
Yenid\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n g\u00fccl\u0259ndiyini yar\u0131ma\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259rini sanki \u00e7\u0259kicl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259diyini e\u015fidirdi. Adam\u0131n yuxusunu qa\u00e7\u0131ran t\u0259rt\u0259miz hava soyuq r\u00fctub\u0259tiyl\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri doldu.
\u018fll\u0259ri el\u0259 soyumu\u015fdu ki, sanki damarlar\u0131nda formalin ax\u0131r. Soyuq d\u0259risind\u0259n ke\u00e7ib s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rin\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259di. Ora \u00e7ox r\u00fctub\u0259tlidir. O, q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259l\u0259ri bar\u0259d\u0259 ac\u0131-ac\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.
Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f otlar\u0131 isladacaq, r\u00fctub\u0259t qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n b\u00f6yr\u00fcn\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 su onun b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259 qan d\u00f6vran\u0131 kimi d\u00f6vr ed\u0259c\u0259k.
\u00d6l\u00fcl\u0259rin qan d\u00f6vran\u0131 sistemi d\u0259 ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr olmal\u0131d\u0131r.
Bu da onlar\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ayr\u0131 pill\u0259sin\u0259 — sonuncu, ged\u0259r-g\u0259lm\u0259z pill\u0259sin\u0259 apar\u0131r.
O bu an ist\u0259di ki, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f dayans\u0131n, yaydan savay\u0131 he\u00e7 bir f\u0259sil olmas\u0131n.
\u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259n bel\u0259 bir ist\u0259k ke\u00e7diyi m\u0259qamda, bay\u0131rdak\u0131 n\u0259mli par\u0131lt\u0131 onu q\u0131c\u0131qland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.
O arzulad\u0131 ki, m\u0259zarl\u0131qdak\u0131 torpaq daima quru qals\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ax\u0131 iki h\u0259ft\u0259 bundan \u0259vv\u0259l basd\u0131rd\u0131qlar\u0131 insan — r\u00fctub\u0259t onun iliyin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yeriyib — torpaq altda uzan\u0131b v\u0259 art\u0131q daha \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ox\u015fam\u0131r. Onlar iki damla su kimi bir-birin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n \u0259kiz idil\u0259r. \u0130lk bax\u0131\u015fdan onlar\u0131 bir-birind\u0259n ay\u0131rmaq qeyri-m\u00fcmk\u00fcn idi. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r onlar qarda\u015f idil\u0259r, h\u0259r biri \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 onlar\u0131n h\u0259r ikisi bir-birind\u0259n ayr\u0131 ya\u015fayan, sad\u0259c\u0259, \u0259kiz qarda\u015f\u0131yd\u0131lar.
Ruh\u0259n onlar\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 ba\u011flam\u0131rd\u0131. F\u0259q\u0259t indi q\u0259ddar, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli reall\u0131q onur\u011fas\u0131z heyvan t\u0259k k\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n, vahid bir sistem pozulmu\u015f, bo\u015flu\u011fa ox\u015far n\u0259s\u0259 yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
El\u0259 bil onun b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259 u\u00e7uruma b\u0259nz\u0259r d\u0259rin bir yara a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
Yaxud da q\u0259fild\u0259n onun b\u0259d\u0259nini balta il\u0259 iki yer\u0259 b\u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, bu konkret anotomik cizgil\u0259r\u0259, kamil h\u0259nd\u0259si \u015f\u0259kl\u0259 malik indi yaln\u0131z qorxu hissi ke\u00e7ir\u0259n fiziki cisim deyildi, ba\u015fqa bir b\u0259d\u0259n idi.
Ondan uzaq, onunla big\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n qarn\u0131nda sulu z\u00fclm\u0259t\u0259 at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, sonra buradan d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lmi\u015f, k\u00f6hn\u0259 n\u0259sil \u015f\u0259c\u0259r\u0259sinin budaqlar\u0131na qalxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
Onlarla bah\u0259m qanlar\u0131nda d\u00f6rd c\u00fct ulu babalar\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.
Bununla d\u00fcnya \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn sirli harmoniyas\u0131n\u0131 qoruyurdu. Ola bilsin ki, onun damarlar\u0131nda \u0130saak v\u0259 Rebekkan\u0131n qan\u0131 ax\u0131r.
O, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 onun daban\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259n qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yerind\u0259 ola bil\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u0259min qarda\u015f\u0131 ki, ne\u00e7\u0259-ne\u00e7\u0259 n\u0259sill\u0259rin m\u0259zar\u0131ndan, gec\u0259d\u0259n-gec\u0259y\u0259, \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fd\u0259n \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u0259, sevgid\u0259n sevgiy\u0259 sanki alatoranda s\u0259yah\u0259t ed\u0259r\u0259k arteriya v\u0259 toxumalardan ke\u00e7ib, n\u0259hay\u0259t, do\u011fma anas\u0131n\u0131n b\u0259tnin\u0259 — u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u0259lib \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130ndi tarazl\u0131\u011f\u0131n pozuldu\u011fu, b\u0259rab\u0259rliyin q\u0259ti olaraq h\u0259ll edildiyi m\u0259qamda, geneoloji marilrut ona real v\u0259 \u0259zabl\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.
Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, onun \u015f\u0259xsi harmoniyas\u0131nda, adi, c\u00f6zl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131r: \u00ab\u0130sav\u0131n daban\u0131ndan tutub Yakov sonra \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u00bb. Qarda\u015f\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131yanda onda bel\u0259 bir hiss yox idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u00fcnki a\u011fr\u0131 v\u0259 q\u0131zd\u0131rmadan eyb\u0259c\u0259rl\u0259\u015fmi\u015f sif\u0259ti, q\u0259rib\u0259 t\u0259rzd\u0259 uzanm\u0131\u015f saqqal\u0131 il\u0259 he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bel\u0259 ox\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131.
\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn q\u0259ti olaraq \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 qarda\u015f\u0131 uzan\u0131b sakitl\u0259\u015f\u0259n kimi o, tez \u00abmeyiti qaydaya salmaq\u00bb \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u0259rb\u0259ri \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn b\u0259rq vuran al\u0259tl\u0259ri il\u0259 a\u011f geyiml\u0259 \u015f\u0259xs g\u0259l\u0259rk\u0259n o, \u00f6z\u00fcd\u0259 burada idi — divara s\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
Usta c\u0259ld h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcn saqqal\u0131n\u0131 sabun k\u00f6p\u00fcy\u00fc il\u0259 el\u0259 \u00f6rtd\u00fc ki, k\u00f6p\u00fck az qala onun a\u011fz\u0131nada dolmu\u015fdu. (M\u0259n qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm qaba\u011f\u0131 bel\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm). B\u0259rb\u0259r el\u0259 asta-asta onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131rxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131 ki, sanki hans\u0131sa qorxunc bir sirri \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
V\u0259 onun a\u011fl\u0131na d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli bir fikir g\u0259ldi. Bu fikir onu diksindirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00dclg\u00fcc\u00fcn tiy\u0259si sol\u011fun, a\u011fr\u0131dan tamamil\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f \u0259kiz qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259mizl\u0259dikc\u0259, o, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli h\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 hiss edirdi ki, bu \u00f6l\u00fc b\u0259d\u0259n he\u00e7 d\u0259 ona yad deyil, onunla vahid bir tam olan yer orqanizmidir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hal-haz\u0131rda ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259r is\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259, onun \u00f6z\u00fcy\u00e7\u00fcn bir m\u0259\u015fqdir. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131rxark\u0259n onda q\u0259rib\u0259 bir hiss yarand\u0131: ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, o, g\u00fczg\u00fc qaba\u011f\u0131nda olark\u0259n valideyinl\u0259ri qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259ksini dart\u0131b oradan \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131\u015flar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
V\u0259 indi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rini t\u0259krar ed\u0259n \u0259ksi ondan as\u0131l\u0131 deyil. O, h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131rxark\u0259n \u00f6z \u0259ksini \u00e7ox g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Lakin indi dramatik bir s\u0259hn\u0259yl\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Onun \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n fiziki i\u015ftirak\u0131na baxmayaraq, ba\u015fqa birisi g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259ki \u0259ksinin saqqal\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131rx\u0131rd\u0131.
O, tam \u0259min idi ki, \u0259g\u0259r indic\u0259 g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 yana\u015fsa, orada he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Baxmayaraq, fizikan\u0131n qanunlar\u0131 bu hadis\u0259ni he\u00e7 v\u0259hcl\u0259 izah ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. Bu, \u015f\u00fcurun ikil\u0259\u015fm\u0259si idi!
Onun ox\u015far\u0131 — \u0259kiz tay\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fc idi!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O, i\u00e7in\u0259 hopmu\u015f \u00fcmidsizlikd\u0259n yaxa qurtarma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Barmaqlar\u0131yla m\u00f6hk\u0259m divara \u0259l g\u0259zdirdi. Divar sanki donmu\u015f ax\u0131n idi. D\u0259ll\u0259k i\u015fini bitirdi v\u0259 qay\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n ucuyla m\u0259rhumun g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00f6rtd\u00fc.
O, Cism d\u00fcnas\u0131ndan d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z t\u0259nhal\u0131qla k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, indi onun i\u00e7ind\u0259 z\u00fclm\u0259t titr\u0259yirdi. Daha onlar t\u0259nha idil\u0259r: bir-birind\u0259n se\u00e7ilm\u0259y\u0259n, usanmadan bir-birl\u0259rini t\u0259krar ed\u0259n qarda\u015flar.
V\u0259 o bu m\u0259qamda bel\u0259 bir q\u0259rara g\u0259ldi: \u0259g\u0259r iki t\u0259bii varl\u0131q bir-birin\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131rsa, dem\u0259li, n\u0259s\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z, qeyri-adi bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verm\u0259lidir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259tirdi ki, f\u0259zada iki cismin b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259si g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcd\u0259n ba\u015fqa bir \u015fey deyil. \u018fslind\u0259, onlar\u0131n t\u0259bi\u0259ti vahid v\u0259 \u00fcmumidir. Bel\u0259ki, \u00f6l\u00fc par\u00e7alanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m\u0131, o zaman o da — canl\u0131 da daxil\u0259n \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flayacaq.
O, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n yenid\u0259n var g\u00fcc\u00fcyl\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259sini d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259diyini, c\u0131rc\u0131raman\u0131n is\u0259 \u00f6z sar\u0131 simini diddiyini e\u015fidirdi.
Cans\u0131z soyuq \u0259ll\u0259rini tamam buza d\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdi. Formaldehidin k\u0259skin qoxusu onu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 vadar edirdi ki, bu iy ona m\u00fcraci\u0259t kimi buzlu torpaq \u00e7uxurda \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259n qarda\u015f\u0131ndan g\u0259lir.
\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, bu, c\u0259f\u0259ngiyyat idi! G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, h\u0259r \u015fey ba\u015f-ayaq \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u0259r hans\u0131 t\u0259siri o, — \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn enirjisi, canl\u0131 h\u00fcceyr\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 — ya\u015fayan kimiydis\u0259 o da etm\u0259liydi! V\u0259 \u0259g\u0259r — bel\u0259 olsayd\u0131 — qarda\u015f\u0131 onun kimi sa\u011f qalacaqd\u0131, h\u0259yat v\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm aras\u0131ndak\u0131 tarazl\u0131q onu — y\u0259ni \u00f6zyn\u00fc — \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u0259kd\u0259n qoruyacaqd\u0131. Lakin onu bu i\u015f\u0259 kim inand\u0131racaq? M\u0259g\u0259r basd\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n toxunulmaz qalmas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olacaq?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yaxud \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn c\u00f6y\u00fcmt\u00fcl caynaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 canl\u0131n\u0131n cismin\u0259 dolacaq?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, sonuncu f\u0259rziyy\u0259si daha a\u011flabatand\u0131r v\u0259 t\u0259slim olub \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcm saat\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Cismi yumu\u015fal\u0131b \u015fi\u015fdi. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, hans\u0131sa mavi r\u0259ngli maye b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 doldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir-birinin ard\u0131nca b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259zalar\u0131n\u0131n qoxusunu hiss etdi. Amma qon\u015fu otaqdan g\u0259l\u0259n formalinin iyi onda tan\u0131\u015f, soyuq titr\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Daha sonra he\u00e7 n\u0259 onu narahat etm\u0259di. C\u0131rc\u0131rama ota\u011f\u0131n k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 yenid\u0259n mahn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. T\u0259miz s\u0259madan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck, yumru bir damla ota\u011f\u0131n t\u0259n ortas\u0131nda sallan\u0131rd\u0131. E\u015fidirdi. Budur, o, d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.
He\u00e7 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nm\u0259di d\u0259. Bilirdi ki, k\u00f6hn\u0259 taxta dam h\u0259min yerd\u0259n \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb.
V\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etdi ki, o sehirli damc\u0131 s\u0259rin, s\u0259ma kimi, su kimi sonsuz, xeyirxah v\u0259 mehriband\u0131r. O, g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259n — m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t, h\u0259zmetm\u0259 v\u0259 ya \u0259k\u0259zl\u0259rin h\u0259yat\u0131 kimi idiot \u015feyl\u0259rin oalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259l h\u0259yatdan, s\u0259madan g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.
B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu damla bir saat, yaxud min il sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn oat\u011f\u0131 dolduracaq v\u0259 bu fani qur\u011funu, he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 laz\u0131m olmayan bu substansiyan\u0131 \u0259rid\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 — niy\u0259 d\u0259 yox — h\u0259r \u015fey bir ne\u00e7\u0259 andan z\u00fclal v\u0259 z\u0259rdabdan ibar\u0259t qat\u0131 horraya \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259k.
Daha he\u00e7 bir f\u0259rqi yoxdur. M\u0259zar\u0131 il\u0259 onun aras\u0131nda yaln\u0131z \u015f\u0259xsi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc dayan\u0131r.
O, art\u0131q taleyiyl\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Q\u0259fild\u0259n a\u011f\u0131r, yumru bir damlan\u0131n m\u0259nb\u0259yind\u0259n qoparaq nec\u0259 s\u0259s-k\u00fcyl\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fitdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar haradasa ba\u015fqa bir d\u00fcnyada, m\u0259nas\u0131z v\u0259 c\u0259f\u0259ngiyyat dolu, \u015f\u00fcurlu canl\u0131lar\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fcnyada ba\u015f verirdi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 bird\u0259n o, ay\u0131ld\u0131. Sanki kims\u0259 onu silk\u0259l\u0259mi\u015fdi. S\u00fcbh \u00e7a\u011f\u0131 ba\u011fda a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin rahiy\u0259si qon\u015fu otaqdak\u0131 b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 v\u0259 formaldehidin k\u0259skin iyin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015faraq dal\u011fa-dal\u011fa i\u00e7\u0259ri<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":99632,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18,3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-99631","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dbi-dusunclr","category-gundm"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/99631","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=99631"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/99631\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":99633,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/99631\/revisions\/99633"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/99632"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=99631"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=99631"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedai.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=99631"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}